Sunday, December 28, 2008

i am STRESSED!


SUPER exhausted! the 4 days HQ clearance fair can seriously take my life man!


i am damn man k... some of the items weigh 15 to 22 kg and i can just carry around.. MAN!


dumb me.. i swipe the WRONG amt. DAMNIT!! burn my pocket $31! and MOST of the items are HALF commission! screw it man.. sell big items also half qei. SIAN...


during these 4 days, i have been worrying abt bf. pray that he will have good sales.. i dun wan to see him unhappy. but sometimes dumbo me will make him upset. auntie irene has moodswing and he has to suffer it :(


must control my moodswing.. he damn poor thing cos he is always the one giving in to me. keeping the best for me... how i wish i could just spend the rest of my life with him traveling around the world now..


really slack thru this 2 weeks holidays lor! damn enjoy! haha..


but i am damn stress now.. cos i have not finished my project and it is due tmr. RTT tmr too! sigh...


CHIOOOOOONG ahhhh!! i want Asssss!! :)


SuperIrene... NEver Say Die!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

OUR NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE!!!!!

here goes the story..
set off to meleca with bf and my two friends. 2 hrs to reach there!


we went to try out EYE ON MALAYSIA! celebrate peng yu's 21st birthday inside the cabin.


friends, bf and me :)


i damn scare of heights la! hold on to my bf tightly. haha!


us :)

okay.. the MUST READ part is here!!


we drove back to JB and was heading back home..


after pumping oil, dunno what happen.. there was one TRAFFIC POLICE CAR BEHIND US!! gosh.. i seriously cant believe it will happen to us.


hmmmm.. i am still unsure why it was chasing us. my friend kevin continue driving and peng yu ask him, "eh.. you want to play with him is it?" i think it sorta agitate him.


the police TURN ON ITS SIGNAL!!! kevin jus continue to drive and go on even faster!


peng yu ask him to stop but he didnt! he chiong red light but luckily no cars!!


at the next T-junction, kevin wanted to make a powerful u-turn to get rid of the tp but failed. HIT KERB and the traffic police car almost hit the nearby bungalow. so many many cars at the T-junction lor!!


he step on pedal to go faster. we almost HIT A CAR! he just zoom past. GOSH!!! SINGLE LANE LEH!! wah lau!! luckily, no opposite car bang right infront of us!


den.. he make a quick right turn and the car lose its traction. step on pedal not step on brake lor!!! HAHA.. I THOUGHT IT IS DRIFT LOR!! cos... i can hear the car tyre eEEEeeeEEeeeeEEeeee.. my heart skip a beat.


dunno at where he make a quick right turn again. the car lose its traction...AGAIN. "DRIFT" TWICE! the car was swaying left right left right..


the traffic police damn steady lor! after all these, he is still right behind us!!


guess he was busy looking behind for the traffic police and didnt see the kerb in front. peng yu shouted "eh.. gt kerb infront."


luckily, he turn and hit the kerb not that much. HIT KERB TWICE!!! gosh!! WAH LAU! serious lor.. u knw like those movies..the cars hit directly onto kerb and turn 360 DEGREE MANY MANY TIMES!!


really count ourselves lucky that hit kerb TWICE and the car never overturn lor!


overturn very dangerous lah!! uncle and me not wearing seat belt on and this means our head will be hit right on k!!!


the car was OFF CONTROL. i can only feel the car going left right left right..


the most scary part is here..


IT WAS RED LIGHT AT THE JUNCTION AND THE CAR HAS LOST CONTROL!!! omg!!!


peng yu shouted, "BRAKE BRAKE BRAKE!!" luckily, he managed to JAM BRAKE in time. at time point of time, i can only see LIGHTS ZOOMING IN FRONT OF ME. WE ALMOST HIT CARSSSS!!!


den the car at my right jam brake IN TIME ALSO!! gosh.. i cant imagine if the car crash on from the right. the driver kevin and me will be the one being HIT FIRST!! window will crash and glass with hit us!!! the car is only like 1 pillow away from us.


i can feel that uncle is holding me very tight fearing that i will fly off. thank god uncle is beside me.. thank god.. thank god.. he was holding on to me tightly all the way...


MY EYES BIG BIG. MOUTH WIDE WIDE OPEN LA!!!


after the junction, i gain back my conscious and ask kevin to stop. me, "please.. please stop.. it is too dangerous.. stop playing anymore.. stop stop stop..." THANK GOD HE STOP!! thank god.. thank god..


reall thank god that i am still alive. i was praying for our safety in the car all the while.. i still wanna live.. i am still young.. i dun wan anything bad to happen to all of us.. i dun wanna meet with car accident.. praying.. keep praying.. praying for safety..


the car stop..


THERE WERE 3 POLICE CARS. 3 CIVILIAN CARS!! SHOCK AH!!!!


the police pointed MP5 directly at kevin!! u knw how scare i was when we came out from the car!!


i really felt bursting out.. why did all these things happen.. we are all our way back home already.


haha.. i can only see WNQ _._._._ this car plate!! cos it reminds me of my secondary school teacher name.. must buy 4D liao!


blah blah.. blah... alot of things happen...


anyway, my friend kevin damn ZAI la!! i think normal driver would have already crash liao. his years of experience of playing arcade! he really damn zai lah.. BUT RECKLESS!!! sigh... almost cause many lives gone..


but thank god, i am ALIVE TYPING ALL THESE!!!! I AM ALIVE!!!!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

i just needa WHINE!!


OH MY GOD.. OH MY GOD.. i am starting to understand what is meant by the "dark and evil side of the company" they always mean.


i am so damn disgusted. like wth.. i am utterly disgusted with the bitch i used to respect. DISGUSTING!!! really feel lyk POURING ACID on her face for making things difficult for my uncle!!!


gosh.. so schreming and good in plotting! i really pei fu okay! never see someone who is so damn good in plotting. plotting to kick ppl to cold palace, gain control and earn money. even the bald man (used to be powerful) WASNT HER MATCH! plotting step by step to condemn him to nothing.


disgusting part is bald man trying to put me down and hate da bitch by cooking up stupid story. no need to make up a story! i hate the bitch already. but i really hate it when ppl try to take charge of my mind and behaviour.


and the man who always digs his nose!! GOSH!! i dun understand why with his capability, he can hold such high position. thru RELATIONSHIP lor! lazy man who jus wan an easier way out to earn money and entrust bitch with too much power.


ER XIN!!!! POLITICS! TOO MUCH POLITICS!!!


i am startin to lose what i have built.. cos of my relationship. evil bitch wanna put uncle to death and i will also suffer.. scary part is she is still treating me kinda good but stabbing me from behind slowly.. i dun think i will be able to earn like before.. shld start finding another job soon..


AND FCUK!! somebody destroyed uncle's bike...AGAIN! it is damn obvious someone is aiming him! big bike with such outstanding number plate.. easy target! but i just have this strong feeling.. it is the bitch's doings!! it is too concidental!

Friday, December 12, 2008


our baked pasta!


cooked by me and my bf! :D


hehe! the recipe is modified and invented by me k!! my uncle cooked drunken prawns and butter crabs for me last time. the drunken prawns was RESTAURANT STANDARD. no joke! exams over so i finally gt the chance to cook something for him back..


i never cook a proper dish for two years!! the last proper dish i cook was furing FnN o level practical. hahahahaha...!!


my skills super rusty so i got him to help me instead. :p


the baked pasta tasted not bad.. most imptly, it is EDIBLE. hahahaha!!


i felt really bad cos he was the one washing the dishes and mopping the floor. :pppp omg..


my bf can cook! he can sew! he can do housework!


most imptly, he doesnt complain doing all these!! WAHAHAHAHA!! aint i such a lucky woman? cos i cant do all these things well!


one thing bad is he needs to be pushed. he will be perfect if he is ambitious and has more drive! right now, i am trying to motivate him but not to the extend of stressing him out. step by step.. push him to have more drive..


hmmm... sometimes i really wonder... if i really ever let him go, will i still be able to find someone as good as him? hmmmm...

Thursday, November 20, 2008

3 tests, 2 project drafts and 1 presentation to be due next week...


2 tests next next week!


tonnes of work to finish! oh-me-god! but the best part is that i only have 2 tests for mid semester! HOHOHO!


french test next week! OMG! it is a KILLER! hmmmm... to be frank, i am not confident to score well for the test. panick leh! it is freaking 40%!


actually the test is kinda easy as long you read and revise through everything! so.. i got to familise myself with french language! LISTEN TO THE AUDIO FILES! LISTEN TO FRENCH SONGS!


JIA YOU IRENE!! I CAN DO IT!! =)

Friday, October 31, 2008

Yeahhoooo...





i have so called completed my homework. like omg.. i have finally done some constructive work. gonna start my jap project next.. so hopefully, i will finish everything by next week.





i was i was back to last time.. single life. i think i am startin to rely on him too much.. i am being affected by him too much.. cos i am liking him more and more. i shld love and care abt myself more!


STAY STAY FOCUS ON WHAT I WANT TO DO!! i have to go for my bike pract!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

FRENCH IS COOL!


my lecturer is ang mo! motivated to study french! kinda easy to pass and score ba.. u see ah.. 40% test is only based on unit 1 to 4. 2 short quiz for 20%. role play is 30% and class participation is 10%. so which means... i have to score excellent for the 40% test and the 20% quiz. i cannot pronounce well so try my best for the role play. 10% class participation is definitely can get de. NO EXAMS. so... i guess it is easy to score well and make use of it! :)


i think next year my jap and french will move on to next advance level modules..


my GOAL is to fully master jap by e end of poly. i am qutting my aikido cos i have lost interests in it le. i want thai boxing! HAHA! aikido is too soft. way too soft and slow.. i like violent sports!!


i wanna push my GPA to AT LEAST 3.7 and above for this sem. I MUST AND I CAN DO IT!! :)


hopefully, i can score A for all my modules and at least B+ for my comm skills. A is lagi best la! i have to do well for projects also.. needa push and pump my project mates. jia you! I CAN DO IT!!!! =DDDD


i wanna watch 武侠梁祝 cos gt wu chun! wahahahha!! and i am watching 篮球火 cos gt wu chun also!! HAHAHA!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

school has officially started..!


this sem gonna be a busy busy sem. 7 modules! hohoho..


needa start going for my motorbike pract le. pass pass and get my license!


cant wait for friday =D

Sunday, October 19, 2008

keep having the thoughts of quitting my job..


am getting very sick of my job. too much politics! and.. i am losing my motivation and drive to chiong. contracdicting to share with him how i felt cos i knw it would affect him.


i knw.. I HAVE ALREADY AFFECTED HIM ALOT! -.-


demoralized when i see ppl opening easy sales in front of me. feel dulan cos ppl are using my demostration to sell. felt disappointed with my sup to change my schedule halfway! did it on purpose as she know of the r/s. i chiong for you.. hope yr fair will hit target.. but in the end.. kns! but.. thinking of the bright side, she changed my schedule to a better place. HAHAHA!


i am damn lost... felt sian to see everyone fighting for survival. only the strongest will survive. HAIYA... sian lah.. just do lah just do lah. i want the money. HAHAHA!! -.-

Saturday, October 18, 2008



boy really look lyk him. HAHA! esp the hair -.-


school is reopening soon. Weee!!~ will be taking up japanese and french. cool!


i gain a lot a lot of weight. work is kinda boring le and i am getting lousy. sux in residential areas -.-


me jia you jia you! :)

Sunday, October 12, 2008

HAHA! I TIO MY FIRST COMPLAINT.


nonsensical customer! she called the customer service to complain. count herself lucky that i am not in F&B line. if not, i will pui pui pui in her food man. si fei zhu..


and the really funny part is.. my boy also tio complaint with me cos he tried to help me to reason with e si fei zhu. FUNNY LOR!


i think we must be the first couple to tio complaint together in history in e company. lol.. so amusing.


haha.. love my boy! :)

Sunday, October 5, 2008

I AM SO DEMORALIZED.


very very demoralized.. didnt manage to have any sales. VERY DEMORALIZED. the whole roadshow become like a fucking play ground. oh-me-god! I HATE KIDS! kids are scary creatures!


i wanna break my record of 11 machines! i am the best! and i simply hate losing. i only want to be the best. nothing but the best...!


I WILL TRASH EVERYONE SALES LIKE HW I DID ON WED! so... i will have a good rest.. drink coffee.. and get ready!

Saturday, October 4, 2008


Happy 2 months! :)


i am just... lovin him more and more. oh no..! but somehow.. i wish he would dump me or leave me for another person one day.


got him a gucci wallet.. cos i feel bad making him paid for the thai trip. see! i am so sweet ok!


oh anw... MY INTERNET IS BACK! :)

Thursday, September 25, 2008


my cute cute tall tall uncle.. he is VERY observant, very very caring, sweeeeeeet and motivating.


he will be perfect if he could quit smoking and buy 4D. also, STOP speeding and reckless riding!!


my internet very siao siao. =/ back from my bangkok holiday trip long long ago..


we missed the morning flight! by 2 MINS only! but the idiotic guy dun let us check in. hahaha.. den his perfume kena throw away. my fav smell! lol!


so sway hor?


i think... bangkok ok ok lah? eh.. not my cup of tea. the shopping cheap cheap.. and i finally watched my tigershow! gross lor! we kena chop! paid twice the amt =(


he paid for the trip... and i feel bad making him spend money. thinking of getting him a gucci wallet. wah.. u knw i cant bear to buy branded stuffs for myself. dun wanna owe him so much cos i doubt we can last long. LOL!!!


i wish he would dump me one day. HAHAHAHA!! gosh..


i am bored. bored of working le.. so sad! i also have to chip in for the lost stock.. got to pay $70 for nothing! =/


i need money! chiong chiong!! finally back to my beloved roadshow next week. YEAHHHH!! i love roadshows!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

i am going to BANGKOK! confirm plus chop!


we have paid for the air tickets and accomodation. confirm plus chop going liao! heard that there are chaos going on there but i dunno how serious it is.. haha! i dun know what the heck things are happening in the world. never watch news for months!


we are staying at Baiyoke Sky Bangkok Hotel! and it is 70-74 floor! i am scaaaaared of heights!


yeah! holidays!! XD


oh yup, i have got into TOP 10% in my diploma course and i have chosen language & culture as my first choice! so... which means i will be taking EXTRA module every sem. 7 modules per sem! xiong! AT LEAST 5 in my class got into top 10% and there are only abt 19 students in my class. damn zai man!


but damn.. i only gt the 2nd highest in class. I MUST TRASH AND KICK OFF THE NO.1 FROM THE CLASS CHART. highest in class gt 3.75gpa. i am aiming for above 3.8 gpa for next sem.


talking abt work.. MY SALES SUX TO THE CORE. omg.. demoralized!! very very very upset and demoralized about it. feel very unhappy even though i am earning high hourly pay (for my age la). cos i feel that i am not contributing at all. i feel that my presence in their counter has pulled down their sales. they attach at their counter to help them sell the exerciser to push up their sales but.. HAI~! instead... the shop downstair open MORE exerciser than the counter lor. i try my best to serve every single customer but... disgrace lor!


keep havin the thought of quitting my job.. i dun feel that i am as good as before.. as confident.. as convince.. as before.. no face to attach at counter anymore lor! my selling style is more suitable for roadshow. but the sad part is.. there isnt many roadshows now and i am NOT earning as much as before.. cos they cut commission which have affected me DIRECTLY. really... reduce the morale to sell man.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

my internet finally can use le! but still quite shock shock. haiz..


oh yup.. in the end, we never go to china le cos of blah blah.. too much complications if we were to go tgt.


oh anw.. i jus recieve my exams results today. i think..... i did quite well..


prin mgt: Z
FB Fun: B
Commsk1: B
MacrEcon: Z
IHT: Z
RHT: Z


Z is distinction above A. WAHAHAHAHA.. so my GPA is 3.67.


but... really wasted.. cos i got C for my fnb project and it pull down my overall grade to a B. i hit my target of above 3.5. i win the bet between me and my friend. hehe. got starbuck treat liao! i hit all my target A but i miss one target and that is B+ for fnb. i got B lor! how sad!


if i get B+ for my fnb, my gpa will be 3.83 lor! hopefully, i have managed to squeeze into the top 10%!!! cos only top 10% will be invited for the certificate programme.


my goal in t p is to get diploma with merit!! i wanna get into local uni!!!


next sem, i MUST get "A" for all my projects. ONLY A! yes! ok.. jia you jia you...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

i have been STUDYING, STUDYING, STUDYING.


i MUST score WELL. i MUST get ABOVE 3.5 for GPA.


i hate losing to the ppl around me. i dun wan to lose. if i score lousier than others, not fun liao lor!


hahaha.. i have to scare and stress myself in order to guai guai study for long hours.


I CANT WAIT FOR MY CHINA TRIP!! sept 8 to sept 17!! Weeee!!~~ 9days 8 nights!!


during holidays, i wanna CHIONG WORK!! CHIONG MY COMMISSION!! i wanna break my previous record commission!!


JIA YOU BA! tata.. :)

Thursday, August 21, 2008

f&b test tmr!


like omg.. i really have to score for well for it. the really sucking part is i got C for the group project. C! terrible C! haiya.. C+ for the 60% component.


the 40% exam is the only way i can push my grade to at least B.


I MUST AT LEAST GET B for this subject!!


UTD grades (w/0 exams)
IHT - A
POM - A
RHT - A
F&B - C+
Macroecon - A
Comm skills - B? or C+?


i have to maintain my grades and score well for the exams!!! so.... hopefully, i can get B for comm skills and f&b and the rest A. i must at least get into top 10%. i want to get above 3.5 for my GPA. i wanna get into local uni!!!! ROOOOARRR!!


YES I CAN DO IT!! COS I AM SUPER!!


AFTER HOLIDAYS, I CAN ENJOY LIAO LOR!!! i wanna chiong work chiong $$$! i wanna get my vespa and modify it.. 9days 8 nights china trip!! EXERCISE!!!!


I WANNA GET MY BIKE LICENSE BEFORE END OF OCT!!!


kkk.. go study liao.. lol..

Monday, August 18, 2008

kinda bored studying..


come here relax relax abit..


i have to score well for this comin exam. if i can score 3.5 n above for my GPA for this sem, gt chance to get STB scholarship.. but my cca record not good. hai~!


"The scholarship shall cover the student’s school fees, compulsory fees and an allowance of S$6,000.00 per academic year"


$6,000 per year = $500 per month.


plus my monthly salary and pocket money, i will have more more money to spend. i can add in more modification to my motorbike. plus i save abit every month, i can go holidays every year lor!! SO GOOD LOR.


if i cannot get the scholarship, i also MUST get into top 10%!!! top 10% can get into certified prog..


wahahaha.. i am daydreaming so much. might be going china from sept 24 to oct 3 WITH TOUR. going with bf, sup and her husband. omg.. with tour leh! cant imagine myself goin tour with old uncles and aunties... super kuku!


but..but.. i cant wait to go there!! sightseeing!! 9days 8 nights. gosh.. i can dump all my stress and enjoy my life for 9 days 8 nights! ENJOY LOR! NO STRESSS!!!!! NO STRESSS!!!! slower pace life..


i dun really like to shop lah. very tiring leh! thats why i didnt really wanna go bangkok with him. weather so hot somemore! dun mind paying more for china. nicer weather!! no need to plan.. just follow the tour.. plus can use sup's credit card to go installment for 6 months. $850 divide by 6 = $141. still affordable..


she boh bian also must plan schedule for me for the next 6 months. if not how to pay her back.. WAHAHAHAHAA!! work = gt money to support my vespa ALSO! my next sem school fees is already taken care of. dun have to pay a single cent! shiok! den every month i just need to save abit and use part of my savings to pay for my next sem fees which i have already prepared. everything is going according to plan. WAHAHAHAHHAAA!!


WEEE!! den next year go HONGKONG!! 4days 3 nights!! march 16 to march 19 2009. can stay at his relative's house. save money for accomodation!! just need to prepare money for shopping and entertainment nia lor!!


maybe next next trip is vietnam or bangkok??


OMG!! I JUST LOVE TRAVELLING SO MUCH!!
i might be going......


CHINA!!


initially, me and bf were planning to go bangkok after my exams but my sup come disturb with her holiday plan. WAH LAU. her closing power damn strong lor!!! no wonder she is so damn good selling chairs.


firstly, she describe describe the place.. make me xin yang yang. after that, she use installment plan to close me. -.-"


wah... china.. 8 days 7 nights!!! Weeeee...~ cool cool weather!


k le k le.. go study le!! CHIONG CHIONG!!! i want distinctions!!! WEEEEE~!!

Friday, August 15, 2008

i did something crazy....


i lobang bf from yishun to makan punggol nasi lemak usin his smaller motorbike. VIA EXPRESSWAY SOMEMORE!!! 80 - 100km/hr on expressway.. at ssdc, the highest i go is only about 30-40km/hr. i am the one riding all the way from yishun to there!!! really crazy but with him around, i just feel so safe.


DAMN SHIOK LOR. i cant wait to get my own bike.


hmmmmm.. might be going to bangkok next month. dunno leh.. maybe only.. hahaha..


CHIONG CHIONG FOR EXAMS!!! JIA YOU!!

Monday, August 11, 2008


Heck... what is this? LESBIAN ALERT!


oh anyway.. WE FINALLY FINISH OUR FINAL LAST PRESENTATION! no more projects to rush le! Weeee..~


IHT individual project - A
IHT group project - B
POM group project - A
Econ group project - A
RHT project - B+?
Comm skills - B
foodandBeverage - ???


personally, i feel that it can be better lah. my group is very LACK of teamwork. allocation of work is VERY LOUSY LOR! in the end, i end up with a lot of small lil work. nobody wanna do i do lor.. =( worst part is nobody bothers to look thru the whole progress of the projects. i dun like unnecessary debate.


hahaha.. but i dun like to lead. leader = more work. i prefer to be mastermind. heehee!




she is so tall! =(


big milk and me. HAHA!

class photo. love my class! :D


got to chiong chiong for my exams! JIA YOU IRENE!! I ONLY WAN TO SCORE DISTINCTIONS AND ABOVE!!!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

like omg..


he is just soooooo sweet! i was kinda shocked when he told me that i only love him for 30%.


SPOT ON man! purposely one! so he will dote me more to get the other 70%. HAHAHAHAHA!!! i dare not over promise things and i dun wan ppl to over promise me too. cos i am very scared of getting hurt. so... i will rather he likes me more than i like him. hee hee!


i am fantasizing the day i get my vespa and it will be my turn to drive him around. HAHAHA! so cute! so cool! den i will get 2 cute cute helmet with goggles! i must pass pass my license fast fast!! den i can drive my close friends too!


be zai be zai! be steady! i am at pract 4 lessons le. pract 5 + theory trial test + RTT + 2 on road pract lesson + practical test AND I GET MY LICENSE LE!!! i wanna get my license before my holidays end!! =D

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

i am missing my uncle so much...


gosh.. i cant believe i could ever fall in love...again. i am missing him so crazily. he is the best!! he takes note of every words i say. even words i cant rmb i say before!


i randomly say that i am craving for chicken rice and the few days later, he bought me to eat the chatterbox chicken rice at meritus mandarin hotel. when i burn midnight oil rushing my projects, he bought me supper.


when i have to burn thru the night studying for my test, he accompany me and help me do notes. give me ideas for my projects when i run out of ideas. he was there when i broke down emotionally cos of projects. drive me to school when i have early lessons..


so sweeeet.. how can i not be xin dong? he melt my heart.. i am missing him soooooooo much..

Friday, August 1, 2008

Me....

went to cycle instead of swimming.. whever i am feeling very down, i will cycle to lower selectar reservior.. stare at the sea and sort out my thoughts.. haha.. i think i will be cycling there quite often now.
look thru the posts in my old blog.. back then during o levels, i was so so so motivated and determined. so determined in achieving my target and ie to be the top student in my sec sch. it all started out from a crap. a msn chat in 02-05-05. HAHAHA.. and yes, I DID IT and i am still very proud of it. all my posts back den are so motivating. i dare to aim. i set targets and work to achieve it. i never give up. i am constantly finding ways to improve. i believe in my super abilities.
but right now, i am so so so pesimisstic. complaining all day long. very upset and disappointed with myself. i dunno why shld i hate my tutor, blinded by frustration that i couldnt concentrate n bother to listen to his teachings.
it is not late to start from now. YES. LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES. i will be attentive and serious. be organized. be motivated. Ai Piang Jia Eh Jia..
my fav song 刮目相看...
fly 尽全力在飞起来
没有后悔不后退
我让你刮目相看
just fly向世界证明我存在
努力过的汗水不断灌溉美好未来

Thursday, July 31, 2008

today... i broke down emotionally.


chiong-ing my project full force.. our "group" used 4 days "together" to complete what is meant to be done within a month. but before that, i hav been disturbing my senior on the progress of the project and share it with them. luckily, his friend lent me his project sample.


last friday.. the progress of my project is not even 5% done. submitting dateline is TODAY. it is only until monday we started on our menu. wine list is not properly done. INSUFFICIENT RESEARCH.


i can only start doing food pairing selection until last night 12pm plus.. it is seriously crazy! chioooong everything till 5am plus. feel very upset with myself cos i OVERSLEPT. i woke up at 11am but the deadline is 12NOON. omg.. i woke up and faster do fila chart and send to them via email. rush down and take cab to school. reach at around 11.50am plus..


i just cry when i was on the way to school. i hope that time will stop and let me have a rest. i feel really helpless.. helplesss.. afraid that we cant submit on time. luckily, we manage to submit on time. the another group who submit at 12.02pm got deducted 10 percent off.


i dunno why.. i shld feel happy cos we have 1 more project down. but... i just cry, cry, cry and cry. i just feel very unwell emotionally. i have been bottling up everything all my emotion my stress my frustration and just chiong for projectssssss. ppl thought i cry cos i just broke out from relationship. haha.. funny. i dun feel good physically, mentally and emotionally.. this whole week my sleeping time is super disrupted. i wake up do work sleep wake up do work sleep. my daily meals is also distrupted.. feel very sick cos i can feel my fat accumulating cos of LACK OF EXERCISE.


i dun hate the tutor anymore. actually.. he IS RIGHT. his style of teaching is very different from the rest. he dun wanna spoon feed us. preparing us for the future challenges.. he want us to find the answers ourselves.. he can by all means tell us the answers so that we wont dislike him.. but he choose not to. he dun wan us to do the project just for the sake of doing. he wants us to learn and apply what we have learnt during tutorials and lectures.


no wonder my senior will say... u may hate him now but u will grow to like him in the future. haha.. so true! okay.. i will put in my best and be attentive in all his tutorials and lectures. F & B industry is interesting.. the tutor too.


i really feel that what i am learning now is useless in the past. becos of that, i do not have any interests to study and listen to the tutors and lecturers. it is so wrong! what i am learning now is useful and will benefit me in the future. and this is why i am in the course! haha.. silly me.


okay.. i am feeling so much better after crying out and typing this post. gonna go swimming to destress and shed off the fats that i have accumulated these few days. tata.. =)

Monday, July 28, 2008

My life is such a bore.. :/ ?


engine full force chiong-ing for my project. gosh.. my project mates are not contributing QUALITY work. it seems that i am doing one-man show and i have to do double work checkin their stuffs. COS IT IS NOT DONE PROPERLY!!! the project progress is not on track and the deadline is THIS THURS. *faint*


i am really stressed up and exhausted. burst into tears today.. feeling kinda helpless...when the books i need to borrow are SUPER RARE, UNACCESSIBLE AND ANTIQUE. i dun really like working in group cos i have no trust and faith in others. BUT BOH BIAN..


i have to keep my motivation up, up AND UP.. be confident of myself! when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. i have to cut down on my complaints too! hahaha.. i am seriously complaining too much. tio influence man!


“我” 的 态度 和 坚持 ~~~ 永远不向苦难低头! 拼到底!! 冲 ahhh~ : )

Thursday, July 24, 2008

the notes damn siao one lor!! i hate the fact that we have to learn stoopid useless information!!


learning objectives/pasta
- differentiate the diff pasta categories and state the ideal cooking methods.


u knw hw many fucking categories that are?


bumbola, conchigle, faralle, fusilli, gnoochi, orecchiette,maccaroni, manicoti, fenne, rigatoni, linguine, fettuccine, tagiliatelle, pappardelle, lasagne, orzo, agnolotti, mezzalona, ranoletti, ravioli, tortelli..


damn fuck lor. i didnt list everything out yet. gosh!! i think it may come out in one of the MCQ questions. show u the picture and expect u to name it out. SIAO ONE RIGHT. i am of cos not going to study and memorise it.


fucking useless..

Wednesday, July 23, 2008





we are the "click 5" =)


hehe.. i got "A" for my individual field trip report! Yeah! :D


more to clear.. irene, jia you ba!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

so long so long never update my blog le!


OMG. LIFE HAS BEEN VERY VERY HECTIC FOR ME!


VERY BUSY LOR. so much schoolwork has caused me to become blur blur piggy. :(


REALLY A LOT OF SCHOOL WORK K! :(


i am really tired.. :(


SIAN LOR. DAMN STRESSED UP LOR.


den today hor when i was working at HQ clearance sales fair, the job trainer ask me if i wanna go malaysia for JOB TRAINING durin my holidays. i thought go e outlets there work and gain experiences but NO, go there to TRAIN PEOPLE. HAHAHAHAHA.. i was like, "Huhhhhh lor?" me train ppl? =/


if there is an opportunity, i will really go lor. VERY COOL EH!! if can go aust even better man!


den hor den hor, i finally pass my motorcycle pract 1 lesson. Weeee~~


alright.. irene.. jia you, hao ma? :)

Wednesday, July 9, 2008





my very first presentation @ TP!


wah lau! NERVOUS LA! i think i did kinda badly. sigh.. nvm. I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME!


my sup treat us to the line @ shangri la hotel but the food and variety aint that fantastic as expected. service quality is excellent!


i feel damn emo lor. i NEED TO WAKE UP!! wake up!! concentrate!!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

MOODY..


these few days i have been very moody. just feel very lost.. -.- den hor, i hurt my back very badly and injure my right foot. e injury is kinda deep.. OMG!


oh yup, i just got my hp mini. i buy it cos it is small and easy to carry to school. HAHA! many discourage me to get it but i just like it so much la! am usinng it now! HAHAHA!


soooo tired lah... i wanna escape to lalalallaa~ land.

Saturday, July 5, 2008



my first motorcycle practical lesson today. OMG. IT IS SOOOO COOL PLS! i think i am pretty daring lah. my bike like almost kiss the side cushion lor and i almost drop the bike! few times somemore. very dangerous..


the instructor even ask me, "you not scared ah? you sure u not scared?". i am not scared at all lah but i have to be more careful. afterall, it can be a KILLING MACHINE. need to stay more calm and focus. FASTER REACTION!!!


hehe. i am one of the fastest in the group leh. i am getting nearer to my dream!!


jia you. hao me? HAHAHAHA! :)

Friday, July 4, 2008

BUSY. VERY BUSY.


flooded by lotsa work lor! very lack of sleep. school is such a bore. i have many things to update..


motorcycle class 2B course
Oh yeah~ i will going for my FIRST practical lesson tmr. even got my helmet k! cool right? high possibility that i will be getting a vespa lah cos i spend like 3 to 4 hours travelling to-and-fro school. getting a vespa will be a good investment and next year i will be studying at SENTOSA tourism academy le! TIME IS MONEY!!!


AIKIDO
will be having my grading test on 26 july. AIKIDO IS AN EXPENSIVE SPORT LOR! after i get my blue belt, i can wear HAKAMA liao!! chio.. chio.. !!!




SCHOOL
lotsa projects lah! many deadlines to meet. GOSH.. and ppl just keep complaining and debating UNNECCESARY!!! small lil things also wanna debate. WAH PIANG LOR! sometimes i wish i could just shut their mouth up. exams will be coming in less than 2 more months. AFTER THAT, IT WILL BE VACATION!! i have to be serious in my studies. stop slacking, irene! jia you.


FUTURE
these few days, i have been contemplating about the future. what do i want to do in the future? get a degree? few more years of studying.. like omg lor, i cant wait to graduate now liao. can i seriously take it? i find it meaningless to pursue "toilet papers".


ME
i have too much distractions and i can feel that i kinda change in certain ways. maybe the trust in ppl? den hor.. these few days i just keep thinkin abt him that i CANT concentrate in school. wah piang eh! but i am kinda glad that i am getting back on track liao le. finally spending some time to do revision and tutorials.


den hor, he come my house downstair and pass me beancurd. LIKE OMG lor! kinda surprised by it. i really feel that he likes me.. OMG!! NO!! i am trying very hard to resist my feelings. omg.. stop doing all these things.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

OH-ME-GOD.


i think i kinda like my colleague. oh shit! cant stop myself thinkin abt that night.. it just keep replaying and i feel so safe on his bike.


THIS IS SHIT LOR! this kinda reminds me of how i develop likings for the "sony" guy cos he is DAMN GOOD in music. he is sooooo attractive when he plays the piano. and now, my colleague is soooooo attractive when he is riding. oh-me-god!


i am trying my 100% best NOT to show out my feelings during work. u knw.. i will only like the person for AWHILE and after that, i will get very bored of it.


arghhh... i hate this kind of feelings!! DAMNIT. i shouldnt hav hitched the ride home..


i cannot like him la!!! hope the feelings will faster GO GO GO away. CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE focus!!

Friday, June 27, 2008

I Hate Group Projects!


i hate doing projects esp GROUP project. seriously, i rather do EVERYTHING ALL BY MSELF. everything can fast fast chop chop be done instead of wasting time OVERTHROWING ideas. sometimes i am just so sick of it that i dun wish and want to comment.. i dunno how to voice out my ideas cos ppl take it as an insult. kinda frustrated abt the quality of the projects now cos i wan to do well!!!


my sense of urgency and responsibility CMI la! i am not doing my job as a grp leader and as a grp member too. my bad my bad. i have no right to say anything cos i did the least job.. i am very lazy one lor that i just dump the job to others. opppss! =x


a very very bad point about me is that i wanna do everythin well all at the same time. too many commitments.. i dun manage time and my things well.. i am very very lack of sleep that i cannot concentrate in doing things and using my brain effectively. look at my dark eye rings man.. it is HORRIBLE. i waste my time staring computer's screen and watching youtube. repeat the videos somemore lor!


yes, it is true that i am starting to get use to this kind of lifestyle BUT I AM STRUGGLING. i rather work la..

Thursday, June 26, 2008

OMG... THIS IS SO COOL.


i have a ride from my colleague on his super bike. cos no more last train. very scared la but boh bian..


this is my first time ppl lobang me on bike. i think he is riding at very insane speed, cutting thru many cars. his bike damn steady la that i dun feel anything. my first time being so close contact with the cars on road!! the first time that i find him so charming and omg, his perfume just smell so niceeeeee~ i find him charmin but it doesnt mean i will like him.. LOL! it is a really WONDERFUL experience!! his bike is really damn cool k!


i think i prefer ppl to lobang me on bike than cars now man. OMG! this is so inspiring la! i wanna fast fast chop chop get my class 2b license. i am picturing myself in the future riding super bike now lor... omg.. COOL LOR!!


now i must save save and chiong chiong more money to support my interests!! :)

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

love song- fang da tong


i like this song.. love song by fang da tong.. :)


he is good!


oh yup, i have finally enrolled for my MOTORCYCLE CLASS 2B!!! gonna make sure i pass thru everything and get the motorcycle license!!!! den today i manage to kope some sales knowledge from "shi fu J". he is damn good la! he fine tune lotsa of my sales mistakes. i will have the chance to sell chairs again! i dun get the opportunity to sell it everytime so I WILL OF COS DO MY BEST TO SELL! if not, i will be letting my "shi fu K" down for his efforts teaching me.


another good news is that i got A for my RHT test! 44/50. hehe. i think i am one of the highest? 14 out of 21 get A la and the rest get B. crazy right? my friends in the group got shock cos i am the highest among them. they all thought tt i am the most weak in studies in e grp. back in my sec sch times, VERY HIGH FAILURE rate for tests la!


i have not revealed my 100% power yet k! only around 60%.. dun play play leh. if not, hw can i be able to score and be the top in o levels? wahahaha!


zi high-ing. this is my blog and not many ppl read it so i can be bhb. LOL!!! bu yao nian right? HAHAHAHA..

Monday, June 23, 2008

RECORD!!!!!!!


OMG... I SOLD 11 PIECES OF UROBIC TODAY. $598/set. i think this shld be the highest record sold in a day in the company. the 2nd highest sold 8 and the rest only 1 piece. but i have 2 additional uzap bundle ($298/set) than the 2nd highest. MUAHAHA. the other gal and me spike each other to chiong for higher sales.


i worked for four and a half day and my total earnings for this MSQ roadshow is $948. hehe.. earned $948 for working 4 and a half day only leh!


my next target is 11 PIECES AND MORE! i wanna set the record as high as possible to make it difficult to break it.


i have this concept is that.. rather than asking for more pocket money, i can just close more deals to get the money. rather than using my family money to pay for my school fees and stuffs, i can just put in more effort and chiong for sales.


if i wanna buy something.. dun think of buy or dun buy. waste brain cells! just buy it and use the brain cells effectively to close customers.


with my 1 year plus of sales experience and knowledge i got from many "shi fu", i shouldnt have any problems selling.


GO GO GO.. 11 PIECES AND MORE!! JIA YOU! :D

Sunday, June 22, 2008



Happy Happy 18th Birthday To Me! XD


OMG. i am sooooo touched. SOOOO TOUCHED!!! i seriously thought my 18th birthday will be a goner. 18th bday sia! 18TH LEH. impt birthday! i really envy my friends who held their 18th celebrations at chalets or even clubs. even if i hold chalet, i DOUBT many ppl will come. use my hands can count de lor! i dun really have many friends in my life. sounds pathetic but it is the truth. HAHAHAHA..


21 June 2008 -
my day started off kinda badly. my shoes laces got stuck in escalator going up at CITY HALL MRT station. OMG. i made many many ppl fall.. -.-" i think this is telling me NOT to drag my feet when walking again. HAHAHA.


den hor, i got decieved by a stoopid sales gal and bought some stoopid crab worth $10. loooong story. blah blah.. i went to complain and kick a big fuss outside the restaurant. haha.. i think this is telling me not to be fooled so easily again.


my colleagues all act blur as if like forget my birthday. den den my supervisor ask me to go to the store room and give me my bday present - watch and GIGANTIC bday card. u knw hor.. the birthday card is DECORATED one lor! u knw.. she is very very busy one.. always flooded by lotsa work. after that, somebody delivered yellow roses to me. it is by MY SUPERVISOR AGAIN LOR! OMGGGGG.. u knw.. when i was drunk durin e roadshow gathering, i said i dun need any presents. GIGANTIC bday card will do.. and i changed the lyrics of the song to "i want yellow roses."


OMGGGGG.. i cant believe she is such a thoughtful person. i am so TOUCHED!!!! I HAVE THE BEST SUPERVISOR IN THE WORLD!!! she is one of the very few ppl in my life who understands me. she treats me very very good. whenever i am drunk, she will be there to take care of me. she is protective towards me. protect me from e bad guys in e roadshow. when e other group mgr requested me to go over to their group, she firmly says no to the mgr. she is forever so patience to me. i am just a nobody but she has given me many opportunities.. i was given the opportunity to sell massage chairs at ctp-f even though i am just a part-timer!


i think i made her sound like a les here but anw, she is married recently lah. HAHAHA. i am very very willing to slog and chiooooong sales for her. ensure that i contribute sales to help lessen her burden to hit the roadshow target. SHE IS THE BEST LAH! of cos i will do my best and work hard for her.


yup yup.. at the end of the day, my colleagues surprised me with birthday cake. OMG. very touched that i teared up.


and yup.. THANKS TO ALL FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES. thought nobody gonna rmb my bday lor cos it is kept very very low profile this year. SO TOUCHED LAH!!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

WOAH!! I AM FINALLY 18.


OH YEAH!! i can finally enrol for my motorcycle class 2b course. this is damn cooooool man! oh yup, i have suceeded in bidding $730 for the hp mini and collection will be after july 7. brand new set! COOL. anw.. retail price for it is $999. damn cool lor.. i can bring it along for my hong kong trip..


i got to save lotsa lotsa money and i will have to cut down on my personal expenses by a lot. cos i wanna BUY VESPA. muahahaha!!! U KNW.. i am spending MORE now than when i am workin lor! -.-" cos whenever i have some free time, i will just buy buy buy things. damn jialat. didnt manage to save at all. drain away my monthly pay sia..


SO COOL SO COOL. i have to STUDY and WORK hard. study hard and smart and get good results. chiooooong work and earn more more more commission!! earn more money and fulfil all my wishlists!! muahahahahaa!!


skali by the time i graduate, i can save lotsa lotsa money. skali if i cannot make it to uni, i will just take the money and backpack for 3 months before coming back to sg and chiooooong work. WAHAHAHHAA!! yah right lah.. travelling around is my life..


i am so happy today lor! cos it is FRIDAY AGAIN. every fri means new episode of 超級星光大道 3. damn happy cos i found a link (http://ipobar.com/tv/) to watch all the taiwan tv broadcasts. DAMN SHIOK LOR! dun have to wait few hour for the upload in youtube. 芯儀-夢一場 is SOOOOOO GOOOD!!! great performance!


work again tmr le. take out my 101% effort and close as many deals as possible. :)

Wednesday, June 18, 2008


YUTING BABE AND ME! :)


our night outing to zouk. my second time there.. music is better and more fun this time! daring hor two gals only. FREE entry for ladies!


cute! ^^



emo-ing...


after that, we went to STUDY. funny hor.. but i slept instead. -.-


alright.. got to chiooooooong finish my projects liao! jia you !! :)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Woah! finally found the answers i want.. :)


went to find my 'shi fu K 'after e group project cos so loooooong never see him liao! miss him. HAHA! at the same time, i can kope his sales skills. he is forever sooooo willing to teach me. gosh! he is the best! the best! :D


i have finally found the answers i want thru him. actually.. i have been thinking thru my robic demo. why my sales movement in residence area is so sucky? my sales performance in town areas is not bad but not in residence areas. i wanna IMPROVE and INCREASE my closing rate percentage. dun waste potential customers lah! the fact is that there are times that i am not able to close "interested" customers.


actully.. most of my customers are IMPULSE BUYERS as my closing is very very forceful.


creating interests. creating needs. creating urgency.


MOST of the time, i just skip from creating interests to creating urgency to buy. i didnt create the needs.. customers i serve less than ten mins BUY and customers i serve more than twenty mins NEVER BUY. cos.. cos.. when my demo is too long, they start to lose interests on the machine. interests not there anymore and i didnt really create impt needs to buy. creating urgency wont be able to work cos they dun have the urge and urgency to buy!! SO MY demo dun work in residence areas and 'thinking' customers cos they dun find that there is a 'NEED' to buy. different customers have different needs for the machine. JUDGE what 'kind' does the customer belong to and use the appropriate selling tactic.


from 'shi fu J', i learn how to force close fast sales. from 'shi fu K', i learn how to target to customers' needs and sell. combination of two great masters selling skills! COOL MAN!


so... hopefully, my sales performance can improve.. wooohoooo! :)

Monday, June 16, 2008

努力造就坚持, 坚持造就成功 ! ^^


i love this phrase...! it is very motivating and inspiring and i also believe that, work hard in the SMART way.


u knw.. u knw.. it is SO DAMN SHIOK TODAY!!!! WOAHHH!! i sold many pieces of the exerciser! break my own personal record! my past high record was 6 in a day (last day at taka fair and the UAE customer who bought 6 at one go at vivo fair). DAMN COOL LOR!!


very pressurized and demoralized ytd cos my performance wasnt that good. EVERYONE in my section concentrate on sellin the zappy and zappy was selling very well. i was ALONE in the exerciser section lor and the damn machine is not moving lor! my sulky face scare away many customers. stress ah! i have to be there cos my sup wants me to concentrate selling that. responsibility leh.. as a senior, i shld set up a gd example. if not, i will be no different from those lousy seniors.


ppl who are supposed to sell the exerciser went to zappy section and kio many durians. WAH LAU LOR! very disappointed with myself cos i am the ONLY one concentrating selling it yet i am not able to sell the machines well. knw hw pek che it is!!


but.. today damn shiok lor!!! my sales is considered kinda 'outstanding' compared to the rest. DAMN SHIOK DAMN SHIOK. 7 ROBICS!!! 2nd highest was 3 pieces and the rest only have 1 piece.


hehehehe..


so my NEXT AIM is 8 PIECES AND MORE! GO GO GO GO!!! JIA YOU! :D

Saturday, June 14, 2008



me <3 love lurve 超級星光大道!!


hohoho.. just finished watching 13th june episode. youtube is efficient. HAHA. i predict i gonna spend my 18th bday next week watching 超級星光大道3 20th june episode. LOL!!!!!


超級星光大道3 super nice lor!! i will feel a part of me missing when 超級星光大道3 ends. 林芯儀 this episode is 赵酷 de lor! 酒矸倘賣嘸 she sings is power de lor! gt the 'bei song' feel..


den.. the gal who PK her out is also very good. hope to see her in 超級星光大道4!!


Aaahhhh.. i wanna migrate to taiwan and stay there for good. ppl there are very friendly, polite and kawaii. they have very 丰富 expressions!!! MAYBE go taiwan to work after i graduate? HAHAHA. sg like very dull leh..

Thursday, June 12, 2008


Happy Happy Birthday! :D


happy advance bday for me and happy belated bday for babe. thanks babe for the surprise plan...!! really appreciate it.. gan dong ah! :DD


we went to escape and screeeeeeam like crazy. shiok eh!


some pics we took.. :)










Tuesday, June 10, 2008


超級星光大道!!!! LIN XIN YI!! gosh.. so tall!


i like her voice.. very very very power-the-ful! the "親愛的小孩" she sings is soooooo full of charisma. wah..impact ah! i want her looooong hair lor! *jealous jealous jealous* inspired by her red highlights, i went to highlight small lil portion of my hair too. HECK LOR, cannot see lor! my hair is too dark and black. waste my $.. :'(


i wanna be a taiwanese leh!! their tv shows is so much nicer than ours. can wear CHIO CHIO winter clothing.. more places to explore and shop! cooool weather!! MANY NICE FOOD! i miss their night market..


how i wish i could go to taiwan now and stay for at least a month.

Monday, June 9, 2008

ME <3 超級星光大道!!!!




i chiooong finish season 1 and 2 le and am following season 3 now. i have many many fav singers and they are so damn good in singing. many different styles!








i like lin you jia and yang chong wei from season 1, liang wen ying from season 2 and lin xin yi and xu jia ying from season 3.








hope lin xin yi will get TOP for this competition and xu jia ying no 2. GO GO GO!!!








this week episode is PK match (06-06-2008) and it is verrrrry hilarous lor! PART 6 AND 7. erm.. it is about this 15 yrs old lil gal PK-ing lin xin yi. VERY FUNNY LA!!! she worship lin xin yi sooooooooooo much. haiya.. watch and u will know.








hope all of them can faster release their albums!!! hahaha.. then i will have the "motivation" to dl songs again.

Friday, June 6, 2008



HP MINI.



BUY OR DUN BUY?



OMG. i am in love with this baby. pc show is coming too! june 12 to june 15. tell me !! tell me !!



Thursday, June 5, 2008

HURRAY!!!~


mid term tests are finally over! I AM SO DAMN HAPPY LA!


know what.. I CANT WAIT TO GRADUATE !~!! ppl in my course are crazy! everyone is perfectionist. all aim for the best. stress lor!


i am doing my projects now can.. SO PIANG LOR!


the start of 2 weeks break also refers to START OF WORK. hopefully, my sales at MSQ will be as good as my sales i had at VIC or better. I NEED $$$$!!! LOTSA $$$$!!! gotta pray hard that MSQ fair will hit cos if the fair hit, my sup will treat me THE LINE @ shangri la's buffet. woah!!!


and yup, some pics..


@ CWP Fair! :)


poly pals :))

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Oh so Mad.. So Mad..


i feel that i am a robot. damn freak la.. i gt to make distinct differences among work, studies and play. FOCUS. VERY FOCUS.


i think i shld be to score the test today. last test tmr!!! POM!!! my lousiest subject!! i am forcing myself to study...to stay damn focus when i am revising.


JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Lotsa fun...


RHT test was pretty alright. Weee..~ after my test, i went to meet up with my colleagues. it was the roadshow gathering! a treat by the mgrs.. sing till like 2am plus lor!


it was very embarassing lor cos i got drunk again. the HIGHEST rank sales mgr was there and...i really feel that he very scary lor. he is like there to OBSERVE us... observe the relationship between each and every one. i saw his eyes kept wandering around lor.


he drove me back home cos we are staying in the same area. den we went to makan nasi lemak at 3am plus! two of us only! stressed sia. he is VERY GOOD in using words to make u say out things!


eg:
him: "u are very close friends with Jo (referin to my sup) is it?"
me: "erm... okay lah.."


him: "so you were staying in yishun all along?"
me: "erm.. ya?" *i didnt want to tell him that i used to stay in bishan. (due to other previous questions) and i LOOK damn obvious that i am lying lor.


him: "i used to stay at paris ris before i move here. it is around elias road. u know where is elias road?"
me: "oh.. near the chalet right?"
him: "not the downtown east one.. it is erm..."
me: "oh.. near PA chalet right?"
him: "yup yup, that is the one. so u went for Jo's ROM chalet too?"


my mind cannot turn that fast at tat moment to note that he is setting a trap for me. HE SET A LOT OF TRAP QUESTIONS LOR!!!!! WORST part is, i make him feel like i am hiding lotsa lotsa things from him. seriously.. he is good. really good. playing mind games on me!!!


hai~! it doesnt matter lah. anw anw.. my flight to hong kong is CONFIRMED liao. gt my booking itinerary liao. HEHE! :DDDD

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Hai...~


gonna have a tough time next week man and i hope it will pass quickly. and yup, guess what..


i just bought AIR TICKETS to HONG KONG and i will be going there ALONE. crazy right? HAHAHAHA.. 2009 march 16 to 19. 4 days 3 nights..


told my family that i might be getting a vespa and they have no objections abt it. i think they knw that even if they object, i will still go ahead with my decision. WAHAHAHA!~ erm.. very tempting to get one lor! vespa for my 18th birthday. a present for myself! cool right?! have thought of the design of my vespa liao..


hahaha.. den a beetle cabriolet for my 21th birthday? yah right! dream on man..

Saturday, May 31, 2008

VERY SIAN.


thinking of the 3 mid term tests is making me feel damn sian. sian la. working today and tmr leh! got to pianggggg already!! i wanna score better than the rest!!!


after the test week, i will change my focus to projects. there is like.. quality lacking in the projects!!


SCHOOL IS DAMN SIAN LA. i am very very looking forward to sep-oct VACATION!!!!
me <3 work!


i totally enjoy work today. hahaha! might be due to the fact that i wanna escape from studies.. lol! i <3 my supervisor! she is the best man! it is like... she really understand me lor! but kinda scary lah cos she can see thru me from my eyes leh!!


she dotes me and trusts me with her "secrets". i like ppl to dote me!! esp ppl who are older than me. really.. really.. =p the "interesting character" is kinda good to me too even though she is scheming. VERY! =x


gonna study from now till 2am to study RHT (RHT test on mon). wake up at 9am to send my POM answer to tutor (POM test on wed). after mon test, i have to chiong study for my Macroecon test (macroecon test on thur) den go for roadshow gathering. tue got to chiong study for POM den go for free buffet treat by colleague. after wed POM test, i have to chiong for macroecon liao! after thur macroecon test, got to meet up to do project. DUH!~ have to start doing research for my individual project so maybe on fri can go with friend to try out sgflyer. at e same time do research! muahahaha.. kill two birds with one stone man! do research for group projects after i reach home from sat and sun work so that i will be prepared for mon grp meeting. during the two weeks break, i will study the lecture notes in advance esp F&B and maybe class 2b theory?


I WANNA GET A SCOOTER!!! (maybe only) but i will go for class 2b test for sure.


BUSY BUSY WEEK! am getting used to this kind of lifestyle liao.. HAHA..

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Yeah! I Can Study! :D


i got 29/30 for my int to H&T test! it is nt bad considering the fact that i am working on weekends and i hav a few commitments on weekdays. busy gal am i!


my study style works! i think i shldnt copy my classmates' style. memorising EVERY single words.. it dun suit me. just like doing sales.. i used my colleague's style of selling and my sales that day was damn "cui". customers could feel tat my demo is very UNNATURAL. can kope the idea but not use it totally. it is just not me.


it is very scary and competitve cos the whole class got around 24 to 30. one got full marks for it.


these two class tests have surely boost up my morale. go go go irene! AIM FOR THE BEST.


kinda glad that everyone in the grp is puttin aside their ego-ness and work together. back in secondary school, my answer is always right and seldom there will be ppl correcting me. i believe the rest in my grp are like this too. they are one of the top few students in their school. can feel that their ego-ness is hurt when everyone start overthrowing each other ideas. "like hello? listen to me.. i got the best solution here." feeling.


i can understand lah.. it just feel so sux when u are not the best anymore and listen to ppl. but to me, it doesnt matter anymore alr. got to get use to it cos in the real world, there will always be "mountain higher than another mountain". HAHAHA. LOL!


the best part is that there will always be ppl reminding me about the projects so i will not be off track. i think getting good GPA shouldnt be a problem as long i am on right track and keep up the consistent work. i have my own "secret weapons". hehehehe..

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

BUSY, BUSY, BUSY.


i have 5 group and 2 individual projects on hold. 3 mid year term tests next week! WOAHHHH! SO SHIOK HOR?


will be officially have my 2 weeks "break" after next week. YES, "BREAK". out of this 14 days "break", 8 days will be spent doing group project. OMG.


VERY EXHAUSTED LOR and i tell you what.. this is 2 times worst than working. gotta rush thru my revision by fri cos i am working on weekends.


LEMME COMPLAIN!!! GOT TO REACH SCHOOL AT 8AM TMR TO DO PROJECT!! POM make up lecture from 9 to 11. INT to H&T make up tutorial from 11 to 1. RHT lecture from 2 to 4. APEL from 4 to 5. AIKIDO lessons from 5 to 7.30.


u knw hor!! by right, i only need to reach school at 2PM ON THUR LOR!! wah lau. fucking make up lessons lor! FUCK LAH!!! i am damn deprived of sleep can!!!


I AM SO TIRED LAHHHHH!!!

Monday, May 26, 2008

Save me from myself.


i need to learn how to manage stress. have been giving myself lotsa lotsa stress recently and i guess ppl around me can sense it too.


supposedly, i shld have less stress than others at work becos i am part-timer. but.. i jsut burst into tears cos i am just so disappointed in myself. the frustration of not meeting up to my own expectation.. very disappointed in myself cos i could feel that my agressiveness, selling skills, focus and sharpness aint as good as before.


the selling style and skill at residence and city are VERY DIFFERENT. dressing, buying power and buying URGE of ppl of both places are totally different. made a wrong move on sat cos i used city skill of selling and applied it to residence.


served a really fucking CCB customer and it added on to my frustration. long story.. blah..blah..blah.. i am DAMN shocked la that the "interesting character" step in and lecture the customer. TIO SHOCK MAN! very surprised but i kinda feel touched by her move. she give me a lesson after that.. valuable lesson lah. she is very interestin lor tt i will wanna knw more abt her.


just couldnt get hold of my emotions that i burst into tears.. think thru it and change my selling style.. be more flexible! slightly better today.


RESIDENCE PPL REALLY GT ATTITUDE ONE LOR. must change the approaching way also.. be more patient but, u cant let them gain control of the situation. must lecture them one lor! cannot be too soft.


i like the satisfaction i could get from work.. and right now, i got to find back the passion and satisfaction that i could get from studies. relax relax ba..

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Keep Dancing... :)


it was damn shocking when i recieved sms from my classmate that she wanna withdraw from the course. i was feeling like her last few days ago.. flooded by lotsa lotsa school work that i have no time to breath fresh air. VERY stressed esp when i am working at a highly competitive fair and having my tests at the same time.


broke down into tears after my f&b test last week cos i thought i have done very badly.. but so dumb lah! i got an A for it. =p maybe i have been thinking too much abt the problems that i have become so negative.. HAHA! I CAN STUDY ONE LEH even though i never study for more than a year! dun play play! i just need to give myself some time to adapt to school.


her sms made me think thru it.. i feel damn wasted if she really withdraw out and i do not wish to see her following my path. IT SUX! i will never want to withdraw out again.. i hav lacked behind my peeps for a year le. i really want to get this diploma and venture out of sg. i have spent lotsa $ for this course le and no, i will not withdraw. i cant afford to do it.


I REALLY WANNA DO WELL. i am stupid (i am a slow learner) BUT.. i knw I HAVE THE CAPABILITIES to achieve my goals.


hahaha..


have my final street jazz lesson today and i tell you, i TOTALLY ENJOY IT. release out all my stress man!! i <3>Keep dancing.. =)

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Focus, Focus, Focus..


had my intro to H&T test today. like OMG. didnt have the time to study during the weekends so got to skip lecture to study.. freaking 5% nia lor!


sudden change of focus from work to studies...again. i have comm skills and POM 0nline test tmr. haiyo! why so many tests...? den hor den hor, i will be having mid year tests for 4 subjects on the first week of june.


5 projects are due on june/july. tell me.. is poly life supposed to be THIS BUSY? or is it becos of my course? i cant imagine my three years will be spent like this...


adding on to my stress level, my coursemates are so damn good when it comes to studying and MEMORISING. can memorise WORDS by WORDS for dunno hw many ppt slides. i am losing out.. if is back to a year ago, i might be able to do it. this kind of stooopid memorising is so time-consuming! i have no time for it so i just understand the main points and the rest i will just write my own so called "logical" answers.


Aaahhhh.. mummy ah... i take my words.. i think working is more fun. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
It Is All Over..


Yeah?


sales was slightly better than usual but damnit, i just need one more piece to be the daily top. the top producer for my section is the same person as last year. seriously.. if i work everyday at the roadshow too, i wont LOSE ONE LOR..


hahaha.. i think i shld have made a few enemies lah cos i keep CUTTING from behind and using my hands to block. i have some very "smart" moves. ooops! but i dun care lah.. i just wan to sell.


i really enjoy selling. the feeing of being able to gain control of everything is so damn shiok. how to let customers walk into my trap step by step.. ultimate goal is to make them buy.. brainwash them but of cos most imptly, TARGET to their needs.


dun talk abt studies becos i am so sux in it now. doing sales is the only thing right now that could make me feel confident in it.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Life is so busy like fuck..


the mega fair is killing me. the kind of tension when u step foot into the roadshow is so unbearable. VERY UNBEARABLE.


it is like there are some who have heard that i am "very good" in selling and it is like if i cant sell, it is like very CHEY lor. u get what i mean? the kind of expectation that i got to meet when i am so called an old chili liao.


i am so not satisfed at all with my performance.. HAI. SO FUCK LOR.


QEI = Quality Effort Incentives. this is what we call the commission. products' "quality" is there and it is up to the saleman's "effort" to get the "incentives". why shld a company employ ppl who dun put in effort to get the incentives?


dun u find this sentence so true? i really feel that i have lotsa potential to be unleashed out. i have the ability and effort to get the incentives that i deserve it. i really feel it..


I NEED AN OVERSEA RETREAT!!!

Friday, May 16, 2008

OMG. I AM SO EMO..


i have been wearing all black for consequently three days to school and am planning to do it next week too. just got feel lor! i have this sudden liking for black stuffs.


my life is so sad... evolving around studies and work. so sad.. so sad.. my life is just so sad.. sad life i have..


my brain is like so dead.. and my classmates all seem to be very good in studies. stress seh!


gotta find time to flip thru my self-help books to find back my spirits.. HAHA!


some quotes for myself..


Every obstacle is destroyed through rigor.

Fix your course to a star and you can navigate through the storm.

That which we persist in doing becomes easier - not that the nature of the task has changed, but our ability to do has increased.

Focusing on what you cannot do instead of what you can do creates a picture of yourself that is narrow and incomplete.


IRENE, GIVE YRSELF SOME TIME TO ADAPT TO IT!!! yup yup.. lol..
OMG!!


i wish i could just withdraw out from school now. HAHA! just kidding lah. i dare not to.


OMG!! there is just so much work to be done. PEK CHE AH. F&B is such a killer and now i understand why there is such a high failure rate for this module. the fucking lecture note SUCKS to the core! it dun fucking provide much essential information. fucking too much boh liao information. having F&N knowledge doesnt help much lah!


i cant absorb well as before and my concentration lifespan sux to the max. oh please.. i seriously need a break. A BREAK!!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Sleep Paralysis...


i thought i was pressured down by a ghost when i was sleeping last night. so scary la! i was fully conscious but unable to move. it was very frightening and i had some hallucinations. intense sense of danger and terror! i could feel that there is something touching me. tio panic la!


it was only then my friend told me that this was caused by stress. i went on to research and find out that this is sleep paralysis.


Sleep paralysis is a condition characterized by temporary paralysis of the body shortly after waking up or, less often, shortly before falling asleep. Sleep paralysis occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the bodily paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. In addition, the state may be accompanied by terrifying hallucinations which cause an acute sense of danger. Sleep paralysis is particularly frightening to the individual due to the vividness of such hallucinations.


Reasons include increased stress, sleep deprivation, sudden lifestyle change and sleeping in a face upwards. HAHA! all i have!


haha.. i am under lotsa stress and very deprive from sleep. i didnt experience this when i was studying for my O levels. gosh.. i guess i have to abandon my job soon. really very stressed and tired recently..

dun u think this is interesting? sleep paralysis.. HAHA!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Emo....


i so wanna Screeeeeeeam... mummy ah.... i dunno i will be able to cope for how long more.. everything is killing me and i am feeling so exhausted and suffocated.


Mega fair + Tests = KILLER!


i have no one to turn to and this is the only place where i can rant whatever i want. Haiz.. the tension i am having right now is going too much for me to handle soon.


oh.. oh.. oh.. where is the sunshine me?

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Lotsa Thoughts...


i have lotsa thougts to pen down even though i have not completed my tutorials for tmr lessons. work were really hectic for these 2 days and i am so exhausted now. an NEW "interesting" character has surfaced up in my working life and i finally get the chance to meet her (my colleague). oh anw.. she is the top producer of blah blah year lah. super pro salesman!


she is not simple and i just feel that she MAY cause harm/ unbeneficial stuffs to me DIRECTLY. VERY STRONG feeling. i heard lotsa negative things abt her and no doubt, i have my reservation against her her. one thing for sure is...i do not understand why is she treating me so good. maybe becos she is transfering to roadshow group soon? she thought that i am roadshow grp mgr and sup bao bei?


like wtf lor..? ppl thought that i am my roadshow group mgr and esp my sup BAO BEI. like sooooo huh lor..... i am damn stressed and pressurized becos apparantly my group mgr told the other higher management that i am VERY GOOD in selling the new exerciser. AND he told the interesting character to LEARN FROM ME. OBSERVE HOW I SELL. LIKE OMG! he call a super senior staff to learn from me? even if i am not good in selling, i also must act as if i am very good.


even the "interesting" character also heard rumours abt me having HIGH closing rate. it is so NOT true lor. she told me that among all the part-time gals, she always hear lotsa news and compliments abt me. like OMG. i wanna faint pls..


my day one wasnt very good and i was just the average. u knw what the highest rank sale mgr told me...? he said, "i expected you to come and set an example for everyone to follow."


LIKE WAH LAU lor. STRESS LA..... didnt enjoy myself on first day. change my mindset and told myself that i want to enjoy selling. luckily, my performance today was slightly better but i still feel that i can do better. u knw hor.. when i MOVE, e 2 senior staffs will move with me. eg: i stand infront of the roadshow and den i move to the back. they will move to the back too. KUA ZHANG LOR! i can feel that there are ALWAYS EYES looking at me when i am demostrating. ppl kope my demo!!!!!!


back to the interesting character.. i knw that she is smart and she always tries to distract my thoughts. she knw the PATTERN MOVEMENT of my eyes and my small lil actions. actually very easy to see lar anw.. haha. becos.. i am NOT a good actor and i am learning how to now. things gonna be interesting with her transfering to roadshow group.. hehe.. good good..

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

my group mates.. :)



ACT COOL NOT COOL. HAHA!


The Skateboard Gang.


OMG! i am so tired and i need caffeine everyday to keep me awake. the apel tutor have this qus for us, "what is yr future plan?"


and i ans like this.. "i want to be in H&T industry and venture out of singapore to jap cos i lyk their culture." HAHA! seriously, i dun have any ideas what to do with this diploma cert after i graduate. but.. since i have gotten into this course, i shall try my best to excel. LOL!


i had my first aikido lessons on thur and omg, it involes lotsa falling. i fall like more than 50 times...?? i cant wait to wear another level of uniform! too bad school does not have muay thai. muay thai more SHIOK leh.


i took up street jazz outside and it is sooooo FUN!! will be having my jazz 1 final lessons on next next week. the final showdown! HEHE! thinking of taking up reggae after jazz but the schedule crash with my thur aikido. ARGhhhh... :(


right now, i am thinking of joining an outside club (FMBA - Food & Beverage Managers' Association Youth Wing). sounds fun yea...? i have like become so active so suddenly. LOL!


and yup, happy sweet working to me tmr! :) CHIONG AH!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Me Lurve School !!!



i <3 school cos... i get to sit, talk w/o any constraits, reach hme earlier and it is so much slack compared to work. time flies very fast~! lecture today is so damn shiok cos the lecturer is going at a super crazy bullet speed. very shiok lor cos it keeps awake! damn cool cos i can TOTALLY understand it! maybe it is still to early to say it... LOL!


:)

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Very Hectic Life...


Gosh.. i am so tired and exhausted! tutorial homeworks and projects are piling up.. tests are coming up too. HAHA! gotta spend my weekdays VERY WISELY. spend a lot of money ever since school has started. oh man.. gotta control my own spendings too!


but still, i lurve lurve school! hehe.. and yup, i am sooooo looking forward to the MEGA FAIR!! the time to earn big big bucks and i definitely have to PERFORM. this is the only time in the year where all the gals will come tgt and compete. COOL right?


hoho.. i am so looking forward to it!