VERY SIAN.


thinking of the 3 mid term tests is making me feel damn sian. sian la. working today and tmr leh! got to pianggggg already!! i wanna score better than the rest!!!


after the test week, i will change my focus to projects. there is like.. quality lacking in the projects!!


SCHOOL IS DAMN SIAN LA. i am very very looking forward to sep-oct VACATION!!!!

me <3 work!


i totally enjoy work today. hahaha! might be due to the fact that i wanna escape from studies.. lol! i <3 my supervisor! she is the best man! it is like... she really understand me lor! but kinda scary lah cos she can see thru me from my eyes leh!!


she dotes me and trusts me with her "secrets". i like ppl to dote me!! esp ppl who are older than me. really.. really.. =p the "interesting character" is kinda good to me too even though she is scheming. VERY! =x


gonna study from now till 2am to study RHT (RHT test on mon). wake up at 9am to send my POM answer to tutor (POM test on wed). after mon test, i have to chiong study for my Macroecon test (macroecon test on thur) den go for roadshow gathering. tue got to chiong study for POM den go for free buffet treat by colleague. after wed POM test, i have to chiong for macroecon liao! after thur macroecon test, got to meet up to do project. DUH!~ have to start doing research for my individual project so maybe on fri can go with friend to try out sgflyer. at e same time do research! muahahaha.. kill two birds with one stone man! do research for group projects after i reach home from sat and sun work so that i will be prepared for mon grp meeting. during the two weeks break, i will study the lecture notes in advance esp F&B and maybe class 2b theory?


I WANNA GET A SCOOTER!!! (maybe only) but i will go for class 2b test for sure.


BUSY BUSY WEEK! am getting used to this kind of lifestyle liao.. HAHA..

Yeah! I Can Study! :D


i got 29/30 for my int to H&T test! it is nt bad considering the fact that i am working on weekends and i hav a few commitments on weekdays. busy gal am i!


my study style works! i think i shldnt copy my classmates' style. memorising EVERY single words.. it dun suit me. just like doing sales.. i used my colleague's style of selling and my sales that day was damn "cui". customers could feel tat my demo is very UNNATURAL. can kope the idea but not use it totally. it is just not me.


it is very scary and competitve cos the whole class got around 24 to 30. one got full marks for it.


these two class tests have surely boost up my morale. go go go irene! AIM FOR THE BEST.


kinda glad that everyone in the grp is puttin aside their ego-ness and work together. back in secondary school, my answer is always right and seldom there will be ppl correcting me. i believe the rest in my grp are like this too. they are one of the top few students in their school. can feel that their ego-ness is hurt when everyone start overthrowing each other ideas. "like hello? listen to me.. i got the best solution here." feeling.


i can understand lah.. it just feel so sux when u are not the best anymore and listen to ppl. but to me, it doesnt matter anymore alr. got to get use to it cos in the real world, there will always be "mountain higher than another mountain". HAHAHA. LOL!


the best part is that there will always be ppl reminding me about the projects so i will not be off track. i think getting good GPA shouldnt be a problem as long i am on right track and keep up the consistent work. i have my own "secret weapons". hehehehe..

BUSY, BUSY, BUSY.


i have 5 group and 2 individual projects on hold. 3 mid year term tests next week! WOAHHHH! SO SHIOK HOR?


will be officially have my 2 weeks "break" after next week. YES, "BREAK". out of this 14 days "break", 8 days will be spent doing group project. OMG.


VERY EXHAUSTED LOR and i tell you what.. this is 2 times worst than working. gotta rush thru my revision by fri cos i am working on weekends.


LEMME COMPLAIN!!! GOT TO REACH SCHOOL AT 8AM TMR TO DO PROJECT!! POM make up lecture from 9 to 11. INT to H&T make up tutorial from 11 to 1. RHT lecture from 2 to 4. APEL from 4 to 5. AIKIDO lessons from 5 to 7.30.


u knw hor!! by right, i only need to reach school at 2PM ON THUR LOR!! wah lau. fucking make up lessons lor! FUCK LAH!!! i am damn deprived of sleep can!!!


I AM SO TIRED LAHHHHH!!!

Save me from myself.


i need to learn how to manage stress. have been giving myself lotsa lotsa stress recently and i guess ppl around me can sense it too.


supposedly, i shld have less stress than others at work becos i am part-timer. but.. i jsut burst into tears cos i am just so disappointed in myself. the frustration of not meeting up to my own expectation.. very disappointed in myself cos i could feel that my agressiveness, selling skills, focus and sharpness aint as good as before.


the selling style and skill at residence and city are VERY DIFFERENT. dressing, buying power and buying URGE of ppl of both places are totally different. made a wrong move on sat cos i used city skill of selling and applied it to residence.


served a really fucking CCB customer and it added on to my frustration. long story.. blah..blah..blah.. i am DAMN shocked la that the "interesting character" step in and lecture the customer. TIO SHOCK MAN! very surprised but i kinda feel touched by her move. she give me a lesson after that.. valuable lesson lah. she is very interestin lor tt i will wanna knw more abt her.


just couldnt get hold of my emotions that i burst into tears.. think thru it and change my selling style.. be more flexible! slightly better today.


RESIDENCE PPL REALLY GT ATTITUDE ONE LOR. must change the approaching way also.. be more patient but, u cant let them gain control of the situation. must lecture them one lor! cannot be too soft.


i like the satisfaction i could get from work.. and right now, i got to find back the passion and satisfaction that i could get from studies. relax relax ba..

Keep Dancing... :)


it was damn shocking when i recieved sms from my classmate that she wanna withdraw from the course. i was feeling like her last few days ago.. flooded by lotsa lotsa school work that i have no time to breath fresh air. VERY stressed esp when i am working at a highly competitive fair and having my tests at the same time.


broke down into tears after my f&b test last week cos i thought i have done very badly.. but so dumb lah! i got an A for it. =p maybe i have been thinking too much abt the problems that i have become so negative.. HAHA! I CAN STUDY ONE LEH even though i never study for more than a year! dun play play! i just need to give myself some time to adapt to school.


her sms made me think thru it.. i feel damn wasted if she really withdraw out and i do not wish to see her following my path. IT SUX! i will never want to withdraw out again.. i hav lacked behind my peeps for a year le. i really want to get this diploma and venture out of sg. i have spent lotsa $ for this course le and no, i will not withdraw. i cant afford to do it.


I REALLY WANNA DO WELL. i am stupid (i am a slow learner) BUT.. i knw I HAVE THE CAPABILITIES to achieve my goals.


hahaha..


have my final street jazz lesson today and i tell you, i TOTALLY ENJOY IT. release out all my stress man!! i <3>Keep dancing.. =)

Focus, Focus, Focus..


had my intro to H&T test today. like OMG. didnt have the time to study during the weekends so got to skip lecture to study.. freaking 5% nia lor!


sudden change of focus from work to studies...again. i have comm skills and POM 0nline test tmr. haiyo! why so many tests...? den hor den hor, i will be having mid year tests for 4 subjects on the first week of june.


5 projects are due on june/july. tell me.. is poly life supposed to be THIS BUSY? or is it becos of my course? i cant imagine my three years will be spent like this...


adding on to my stress level, my coursemates are so damn good when it comes to studying and MEMORISING. can memorise WORDS by WORDS for dunno hw many ppt slides. i am losing out.. if is back to a year ago, i might be able to do it. this kind of stooopid memorising is so time-consuming! i have no time for it so i just understand the main points and the rest i will just write my own so called "logical" answers.


Aaahhhh.. mummy ah... i take my words.. i think working is more fun. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

It Is All Over..


Yeah?


sales was slightly better than usual but damnit, i just need one more piece to be the daily top. the top producer for my section is the same person as last year. seriously.. if i work everyday at the roadshow too, i wont LOSE ONE LOR..


hahaha.. i think i shld have made a few enemies lah cos i keep CUTTING from behind and using my hands to block. i have some very "smart" moves. ooops! but i dun care lah.. i just wan to sell.


i really enjoy selling. the feeing of being able to gain control of everything is so damn shiok. how to let customers walk into my trap step by step.. ultimate goal is to make them buy.. brainwash them but of cos most imptly, TARGET to their needs.


dun talk abt studies becos i am so sux in it now. doing sales is the only thing right now that could make me feel confident in it.

Life is so busy like fuck..


the mega fair is killing me. the kind of tension when u step foot into the roadshow is so unbearable. VERY UNBEARABLE.


it is like there are some who have heard that i am "very good" in selling and it is like if i cant sell, it is like very CHEY lor. u get what i mean? the kind of expectation that i got to meet when i am so called an old chili liao.


i am so not satisfed at all with my performance.. HAI. SO FUCK LOR.


QEI = Quality Effort Incentives. this is what we call the commission. products' "quality" is there and it is up to the saleman's "effort" to get the "incentives". why shld a company employ ppl who dun put in effort to get the incentives?


dun u find this sentence so true? i really feel that i have lotsa potential to be unleashed out. i have the ability and effort to get the incentives that i deserve it. i really feel it..


I NEED AN OVERSEA RETREAT!!!

OMG. I AM SO EMO..


i have been wearing all black for consequently three days to school and am planning to do it next week too. just got feel lor! i have this sudden liking for black stuffs.


my life is so sad... evolving around studies and work. so sad.. so sad.. my life is just so sad.. sad life i have..


my brain is like so dead.. and my classmates all seem to be very good in studies. stress seh!


gotta find time to flip thru my self-help books to find back my spirits.. HAHA!


some quotes for myself..


Every obstacle is destroyed through rigor.

Fix your course to a star and you can navigate through the storm.

That which we persist in doing becomes easier - not that the nature of the task has changed, but our ability to do has increased.

Focusing on what you cannot do instead of what you can do creates a picture of yourself that is narrow and incomplete.


IRENE, GIVE YRSELF SOME TIME TO ADAPT TO IT!!! yup yup.. lol..

OMG!!


i wish i could just withdraw out from school now. HAHA! just kidding lah. i dare not to.


OMG!! there is just so much work to be done. PEK CHE AH. F&B is such a killer and now i understand why there is such a high failure rate for this module. the fucking lecture note SUCKS to the core! it dun fucking provide much essential information. fucking too much boh liao information. having F&N knowledge doesnt help much lah!


i cant absorb well as before and my concentration lifespan sux to the max. oh please.. i seriously need a break. A BREAK!!!!

Sleep Paralysis...


i thought i was pressured down by a ghost when i was sleeping last night. so scary la! i was fully conscious but unable to move. it was very frightening and i had some hallucinations. intense sense of danger and terror! i could feel that there is something touching me. tio panic la!


it was only then my friend told me that this was caused by stress. i went on to research and find out that this is sleep paralysis.


Sleep paralysis is a condition characterized by temporary paralysis of the body shortly after waking up or, less often, shortly before falling asleep. Sleep paralysis occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the bodily paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. In addition, the state may be accompanied by terrifying hallucinations which cause an acute sense of danger. Sleep paralysis is particularly frightening to the individual due to the vividness of such hallucinations.


Reasons include increased stress, sleep deprivation, sudden lifestyle change and sleeping in a face upwards. HAHA! all i have!


haha.. i am under lotsa stress and very deprive from sleep. i didnt experience this when i was studying for my O levels. gosh.. i guess i have to abandon my job soon. really very stressed and tired recently..

dun u think this is interesting? sleep paralysis.. HAHA!

Emo....


i so wanna Screeeeeeeam... mummy ah.... i dunno i will be able to cope for how long more.. everything is killing me and i am feeling so exhausted and suffocated.


Mega fair + Tests = KILLER!


i have no one to turn to and this is the only place where i can rant whatever i want. Haiz.. the tension i am having right now is going too much for me to handle soon.


oh.. oh.. oh.. where is the sunshine me?

Lotsa Thoughts...


i have lotsa thougts to pen down even though i have not completed my tutorials for tmr lessons. work were really hectic for these 2 days and i am so exhausted now. an NEW "interesting" character has surfaced up in my working life and i finally get the chance to meet her (my colleague). oh anw.. she is the top producer of blah blah year lah. super pro salesman!


she is not simple and i just feel that she MAY cause harm/ unbeneficial stuffs to me DIRECTLY. VERY STRONG feeling. i heard lotsa negative things abt her and no doubt, i have my reservation against her her. one thing for sure is...i do not understand why is she treating me so good. maybe becos she is transfering to roadshow group soon? she thought that i am roadshow grp mgr and sup bao bei?


like wtf lor..? ppl thought that i am my roadshow group mgr and esp my sup BAO BEI. like sooooo huh lor..... i am damn stressed and pressurized becos apparantly my group mgr told the other higher management that i am VERY GOOD in selling the new exerciser. AND he told the interesting character to LEARN FROM ME. OBSERVE HOW I SELL. LIKE OMG! he call a super senior staff to learn from me? even if i am not good in selling, i also must act as if i am very good.


even the "interesting" character also heard rumours abt me having HIGH closing rate. it is so NOT true lor. she told me that among all the part-time gals, she always hear lotsa news and compliments abt me. like OMG. i wanna faint pls..


my day one wasnt very good and i was just the average. u knw what the highest rank sale mgr told me...? he said, "i expected you to come and set an example for everyone to follow."


LIKE WAH LAU lor. STRESS LA..... didnt enjoy myself on first day. change my mindset and told myself that i want to enjoy selling. luckily, my performance today was slightly better but i still feel that i can do better. u knw hor.. when i MOVE, e 2 senior staffs will move with me. eg: i stand infront of the roadshow and den i move to the back. they will move to the back too. KUA ZHANG LOR! i can feel that there are ALWAYS EYES looking at me when i am demostrating. ppl kope my demo!!!!!!


back to the interesting character.. i knw that she is smart and she always tries to distract my thoughts. she knw the PATTERN MOVEMENT of my eyes and my small lil actions. actually very easy to see lar anw.. haha. becos.. i am NOT a good actor and i am learning how to now. things gonna be interesting with her transfering to roadshow group.. hehe.. good good..

my group mates.. :)



ACT COOL NOT COOL. HAHA!


The Skateboard Gang.


OMG! i am so tired and i need caffeine everyday to keep me awake. the apel tutor have this qus for us, "what is yr future plan?"


and i ans like this.. "i want to be in H&T industry and venture out of singapore to jap cos i lyk their culture." HAHA! seriously, i dun have any ideas what to do with this diploma cert after i graduate. but.. since i have gotten into this course, i shall try my best to excel. LOL!


i had my first aikido lessons on thur and omg, it involes lotsa falling. i fall like more than 50 times...?? i cant wait to wear another level of uniform! too bad school does not have muay thai. muay thai more SHIOK leh.


i took up street jazz outside and it is sooooo FUN!! will be having my jazz 1 final lessons on next next week. the final showdown! HEHE! thinking of taking up reggae after jazz but the schedule crash with my thur aikido. ARGhhhh... :(


right now, i am thinking of joining an outside club (FMBA - Food & Beverage Managers' Association Youth Wing). sounds fun yea...? i have like become so active so suddenly. LOL!


and yup, happy sweet working to me tmr! :) CHIONG AH!

Me Lurve School !!!



i <3 school cos... i get to sit, talk w/o any constraits, reach hme earlier and it is so much slack compared to work. time flies very fast~! lecture today is so damn shiok cos the lecturer is going at a super crazy bullet speed. very shiok lor cos it keeps awake! damn cool cos i can TOTALLY understand it! maybe it is still to early to say it... LOL!


:)

Very Hectic Life...


Gosh.. i am so tired and exhausted! tutorial homeworks and projects are piling up.. tests are coming up too. HAHA! gotta spend my weekdays VERY WISELY. spend a lot of money ever since school has started. oh man.. gotta control my own spendings too!


but still, i lurve lurve school! hehe.. and yup, i am sooooo looking forward to the MEGA FAIR!! the time to earn big big bucks and i definitely have to PERFORM. this is the only time in the year where all the gals will come tgt and compete. COOL right?


hoho.. i am so looking forward to it!

some of my class gals...!

we have beautiful loooong legs! *yah right..!*

me and my lesmate again..!


something very tulan sia! u knw.. my rich rich royal blood customer bought 6 machines AGAIN plus a very high end chair but NOT from me. oh damnit. the lady from the embassy called me FIVE times but i didnt ans. phone in silent mode! so..she called the customer service and the stooopid customer service ask her to get from any of the outlets.


when i called her back, she told me that the problem has been settled. at that point of time, i didnt knw that she wanna buy. i only knw it until today when my colleague from the outlet told me. WAH LAU!! i lost few hundred bucks la! DAMNIT!!!


i lost few hundred bucks cos i just delayed e phone call for 10-20mins!! WAH LAU!!


u say gek sim not gek sim? OF COS gek sim leh...!! =(