today... i broke down emotionally.


chiong-ing my project full force.. our "group" used 4 days "together" to complete what is meant to be done within a month. but before that, i hav been disturbing my senior on the progress of the project and share it with them. luckily, his friend lent me his project sample.


last friday.. the progress of my project is not even 5% done. submitting dateline is TODAY. it is only until monday we started on our menu. wine list is not properly done. INSUFFICIENT RESEARCH.


i can only start doing food pairing selection until last night 12pm plus.. it is seriously crazy! chioooong everything till 5am plus. feel very upset with myself cos i OVERSLEPT. i woke up at 11am but the deadline is 12NOON. omg.. i woke up and faster do fila chart and send to them via email. rush down and take cab to school. reach at around 11.50am plus..


i just cry when i was on the way to school. i hope that time will stop and let me have a rest. i feel really helpless.. helplesss.. afraid that we cant submit on time. luckily, we manage to submit on time. the another group who submit at 12.02pm got deducted 10 percent off.


i dunno why.. i shld feel happy cos we have 1 more project down. but... i just cry, cry, cry and cry. i just feel very unwell emotionally. i have been bottling up everything all my emotion my stress my frustration and just chiong for projectssssss. ppl thought i cry cos i just broke out from relationship. haha.. funny. i dun feel good physically, mentally and emotionally.. this whole week my sleeping time is super disrupted. i wake up do work sleep wake up do work sleep. my daily meals is also distrupted.. feel very sick cos i can feel my fat accumulating cos of LACK OF EXERCISE.


i dun hate the tutor anymore. actually.. he IS RIGHT. his style of teaching is very different from the rest. he dun wanna spoon feed us. preparing us for the future challenges.. he want us to find the answers ourselves.. he can by all means tell us the answers so that we wont dislike him.. but he choose not to. he dun wan us to do the project just for the sake of doing. he wants us to learn and apply what we have learnt during tutorials and lectures.


no wonder my senior will say... u may hate him now but u will grow to like him in the future. haha.. so true! okay.. i will put in my best and be attentive in all his tutorials and lectures. F & B industry is interesting.. the tutor too.


i really feel that what i am learning now is useless in the past. becos of that, i do not have any interests to study and listen to the tutors and lecturers. it is so wrong! what i am learning now is useful and will benefit me in the future. and this is why i am in the course! haha.. silly me.


okay.. i am feeling so much better after crying out and typing this post. gonna go swimming to destress and shed off the fats that i have accumulated these few days. tata.. =)

My life is such a bore.. :/ ?


engine full force chiong-ing for my project. gosh.. my project mates are not contributing QUALITY work. it seems that i am doing one-man show and i have to do double work checkin their stuffs. COS IT IS NOT DONE PROPERLY!!! the project progress is not on track and the deadline is THIS THURS. *faint*


i am really stressed up and exhausted. burst into tears today.. feeling kinda helpless...when the books i need to borrow are SUPER RARE, UNACCESSIBLE AND ANTIQUE. i dun really like working in group cos i have no trust and faith in others. BUT BOH BIAN..


i have to keep my motivation up, up AND UP.. be confident of myself! when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. i have to cut down on my complaints too! hahaha.. i am seriously complaining too much. tio influence man!


“我” 的 态度 和 坚持 ~~~ 永远不向苦难低头! 拼到底!! 冲 ahhh~ : )

the notes damn siao one lor!! i hate the fact that we have to learn stoopid useless information!!


learning objectives/pasta
- differentiate the diff pasta categories and state the ideal cooking methods.


u knw hw many fucking categories that are?


bumbola, conchigle, faralle, fusilli, gnoochi, orecchiette,maccaroni, manicoti, fenne, rigatoni, linguine, fettuccine, tagiliatelle, pappardelle, lasagne, orzo, agnolotti, mezzalona, ranoletti, ravioli, tortelli..


damn fuck lor. i didnt list everything out yet. gosh!! i think it may come out in one of the MCQ questions. show u the picture and expect u to name it out. SIAO ONE RIGHT. i am of cos not going to study and memorise it.


fucking useless..

we are the "click 5" =)


hehe.. i got "A" for my individual field trip report! Yeah! :D


more to clear.. irene, jia you ba!

so long so long never update my blog le!


OMG. LIFE HAS BEEN VERY VERY HECTIC FOR ME!


VERY BUSY LOR. so much schoolwork has caused me to become blur blur piggy. :(


REALLY A LOT OF SCHOOL WORK K! :(


i am really tired.. :(


SIAN LOR. DAMN STRESSED UP LOR.


den today hor when i was working at HQ clearance sales fair, the job trainer ask me if i wanna go malaysia for JOB TRAINING durin my holidays. i thought go e outlets there work and gain experiences but NO, go there to TRAIN PEOPLE. HAHAHAHAHA.. i was like, "Huhhhhh lor?" me train ppl? =/


if there is an opportunity, i will really go lor. VERY COOL EH!! if can go aust even better man!


den hor den hor, i finally pass my motorcycle pract 1 lesson. Weeee~~


alright.. irene.. jia you, hao ma? :)

my very first presentation @ TP!


wah lau! NERVOUS LA! i think i did kinda badly. sigh.. nvm. I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME!


my sup treat us to the line @ shangri la hotel but the food and variety aint that fantastic as expected. service quality is excellent!


i feel damn emo lor. i NEED TO WAKE UP!! wake up!! concentrate!!

MOODY..


these few days i have been very moody. just feel very lost.. -.- den hor, i hurt my back very badly and injure my right foot. e injury is kinda deep.. OMG!


oh yup, i just got my hp mini. i buy it cos it is small and easy to carry to school. HAHA! many discourage me to get it but i just like it so much la! am usinng it now! HAHAHA!


soooo tired lah... i wanna escape to lalalallaa~ land.

my first motorcycle practical lesson today. OMG. IT IS SOOOO COOL PLS! i think i am pretty daring lah. my bike like almost kiss the side cushion lor and i almost drop the bike! few times somemore. very dangerous..


the instructor even ask me, "you not scared ah? you sure u not scared?". i am not scared at all lah but i have to be more careful. afterall, it can be a KILLING MACHINE. need to stay more calm and focus. FASTER REACTION!!!


hehe. i am one of the fastest in the group leh. i am getting nearer to my dream!!


jia you. hao me? HAHAHAHA! :)

BUSY. VERY BUSY.


flooded by lotsa work lor! very lack of sleep. school is such a bore. i have many things to update..


motorcycle class 2B course
Oh yeah~ i will going for my FIRST practical lesson tmr. even got my helmet k! cool right? high possibility that i will be getting a vespa lah cos i spend like 3 to 4 hours travelling to-and-fro school. getting a vespa will be a good investment and next year i will be studying at SENTOSA tourism academy le! TIME IS MONEY!!!


AIKIDO
will be having my grading test on 26 july. AIKIDO IS AN EXPENSIVE SPORT LOR! after i get my blue belt, i can wear HAKAMA liao!! chio.. chio.. !!!




SCHOOL
lotsa projects lah! many deadlines to meet. GOSH.. and ppl just keep complaining and debating UNNECCESARY!!! small lil things also wanna debate. WAH PIANG LOR! sometimes i wish i could just shut their mouth up. exams will be coming in less than 2 more months. AFTER THAT, IT WILL BE VACATION!! i have to be serious in my studies. stop slacking, irene! jia you.


FUTURE
these few days, i have been contemplating about the future. what do i want to do in the future? get a degree? few more years of studying.. like omg lor, i cant wait to graduate now liao. can i seriously take it? i find it meaningless to pursue "toilet papers".


ME
i have too much distractions and i can feel that i kinda change in certain ways. maybe the trust in ppl? den hor.. these few days i just keep thinkin abt him that i CANT concentrate in school. wah piang eh! but i am kinda glad that i am getting back on track liao le. finally spending some time to do revision and tutorials.


den hor, he come my house downstair and pass me beancurd. LIKE OMG lor! kinda surprised by it. i really feel that he likes me.. OMG!! NO!! i am trying very hard to resist my feelings. omg.. stop doing all these things.