Thursday, December 24, 2009

Isomnia

I can't sleep so here I am blogging.. I am really excited and I can't wait to give my boy the present that I have bought. In case u are wondering, I bought him a nautica watch. Love the design and hope he will like it as much as I do..! It is a Rose gold plated watch with black dial and black rubber strap.. I have always like guys wearing nautica watch! Lol! Cos I find the watch design cool and stylish. I like tag heuer too but it is super not within my budget. Maybe few years later? Can't wait for Xmas to arrive! :)

Thursday, October 15, 2009

WOOOHOOO! TIMETABLE IS OUT!


i am so gonna love this sem! will be studying at TOURISM ACADEMY @ SENTOSA!! WOAH. this is one of the reasons why i have chosen tp tourism course over other poly. something diff!


i am so gonna rollerblade every thursday after school. i also wanna kayak!!!! 3 hrs break on monday will not be a problem cos WE CAN EXPLORE THE ISLAND!! lotsa things to do!!! too bad the IR is not opened yet! i believe we will have student discounts? we can head to vivo city for shopping! for movies! for food! for everything.. muahahahahaha!!! i am damn sick of the tampines campus already..


I AM SO GONNA UTILIZE THIS SEM AT SENTOSA!! okay not forgetting about the study part.. WEDNESDAY NO SCHOOL! HOW COOL RIGHT? shall utilize my wednesday for revisions. i am a good gal :)


WAHAHAHAHAHAAA

Monday, October 12, 2009

i just bought a super duper cheap air ticket to taipei. only 217 dollars!


WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!! my estimation of accommodation for one is app $150 for 5 nights.


only $367 for 6 days 5 nights! CHEAP RIGHT?? yes freaking cheap!


april 14 to april 19! COOL! i miss taipei food! super nice! :D

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hello! I am BACK!

Japan school trip was SUGOI! Totally enjoyed it to the max!

day 1 -gero (ryokan and onsen)
day 2 - gifu (homestay)
day 3 - nagoya (school visit)
day 4 - kobe (free and easy)
day 5 - kyoto (free and easy)
day 6 - osaka

KOBE BEEF OISHII. SUSHI OISHII. RAMEN OISHII. TAKO YAKI OISHII. the breakfast and dinner i had at the ryokan was TOTEMO TOTEMO OISHII.

the school visit to nagoya city technical high school was cool! they were having a school festival and we were treated as SUPER VIP. you can only experience it in this trip! oh yup, i stayed over with a traditional japanese family for my homestay programme. COOL! really had a hard time communicating with them man! hahaha..

I LOVE JAPAN! i will love to visit tokyo and hokkaido one day with bf. brush up my japanese first and den bring him around. :)

planning for my next holiday destination. still keeping a lookout for cheap cheap air tickets.. I JUST LOVE TO TRAVEL and thats why i am a HTM student! haha!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

SAY HELLO TO JAPAN IN JUST 3 MORE DAYS~!!!


omg.. i am feeling damn high about it. HIGH! a place that i really want to go so much! seriously, i am damn broke now. never been this broke before.. but i believe it is all worth it!

how i wish money can drop down now....~~ :)

Thursday, September 17, 2009

OMG OMG.. OMG OMG...


if i have 70% of olivia ong looks and feminine, i think i will be perfect. haha! watch her performance in xing guang da dao 5. she is super duper good! idol!!!~

Monday, September 14, 2009

I AM GOING JAPAN IN JUST.....15 DAYS!


ooohh la la~ say yeah!


i am aiming to go taiwan, china or australia for my next holiday. still searching for the best deal! hopefully can go! worst come to worst go genting!


i have been working continuously for 13 days! 3 more days to rest day.. ohhh lala! jia you :)

Saturday, September 5, 2009

YOYOYOOOO...


i manage to find a new job with the help of my poly classmate.. say GOODBYE to my current sale promoter job. guess what? i gonna work as clinic assistant. good decent job right? furthermore, i can get the same or even higher hourly pay than my current job. but den~ i will have to undergo thru training first.

isnt it cool to the max? muahahaha! i do not have to sux up to ppl i dun lyk anymore. the working atmosphere has changed. it is not as fun as before cos there are many ah bao. getting commission is a lot more difficult. schedule is super unstable. YEAH!!

the funny part is i unconciously assume close the clinic mgr into employing me. LOL! sales habit! better than waiting for call right!

i need to chiong chiong chiong. i need money. lotsa money. no off days at all next week. but who cares! i can take it.. chiooong ar!! !

Friday, August 21, 2009

I am mugging for marketing and the test is just few hours away. This is killing me but I am not giving up. I have to do my best and push up my grade. Just do it! Haha.. How I wish I could turn the clock into the future and be a working adult with a degree. Mad pursuit of papers is seriously killing me and my brain cells!! Guess what? I spent 4 days or less to complete marketing. I only attended three lecture and most of time I was dozing off. Tutorials are basically useless and wastage of time. I was just pretending to listen and daydreaming away. Just give me the textbook, lecture notes and model answers for all the past year papers and I think I can self study it within one or two weeks. Going to school is simply a wastage of time and just for the sake of that stupid 85% attendance and CLASS participation. The whole idea is stupid! This is damn meaningless!! But what to do?! :( Dun u agree with me?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

WOOOOOOOO!!

it is LAST DAY of school tmr! YEAH! seriously, i am DYING. i look like a ZOMBIE. i think i am not going to do well for this semester. it is kinda screw up! i believe most of the students in da course screw up too. *console myself* lol! Sigh, this is really disappointing...

my hopes of getting into local uni are soooo gggoing to be dashed. my second hope is to get into airline industry! cabin crew! wooohooo! hopefully pls!!! only need to work 15 days per month!! how cool man! to be frank, i am sick of studying so aimlessly. studying kills moi brain cells!

i will really have to brush up my command of jap to increase my chances! last paper of jap grammer test 2 today! cool! seriously.. i have spent so much time learning the vocabulary and grammer. it is of a waste if i dun continue. study until i fall sick k! yup yup.. so i will registering for JLPT 4.

taking advance french next next sem.. if i can pick up these 2 languages, it will be of great advantage for me! esp when i will be working in the hospitality n tourism sector in da future?

JIA YOU!! always look on the bright side of life... ^^

Monday, August 10, 2009

i am a little bored..

SUPPOSEDLY to go out today but oh well.. :(

i am feeling a little stressed with school work..

will i be able to do well for this semester? i HOPE so..

rotting at home.. BORED! studying for my jap test later. BORED.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Woah!! Guess what? I am blogging with new phone! IPHONE 3GS!! cool!! Awesome!! Love my darling!! He bought it for me! Our first year anniversary. I bought him a raphl polo sweater. Cost me two hundred bucks! Not bad eh.. In exchange for iPhone! Kinda unexpected! It is exactly what I always wanted. Can't believe I am holding it again after like two years? Woohoo!! Seriously I couldn't bear to spend so much on a phone. Love love my darling!! Da best!! Coooooooooooool....!!!! Gosh gosh!!!! Oh yup, I smashed my lg phone LCD few days back. I have lost all my contacts! But nvm.. Cos I have my desired phone!! Wee.. And and and... The japan trip in CONFIRMED!!! Coool!!! Yeah!! Nihon ga totemo suki desu!!!! Life is good! Ok, for the time being. Haha!!! :))))))))

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

seriously... i am getting weaker in my academics!

i got into top 10% for da first sem and drop out from it last sem. really disappointed about my results! i would have been into DHL too.. DHL LEH!! DHL WOR!!! DHL!! but... :(

i am losing interests in studies and skipping lectures VERY frequently. u see.. i have only attended MKT lecture TWICE. damn jialat. am i thinking too highly of myself that i can get good results w/o attending lec? yes! definitely! i am simply tooooooo lazy. oH-MY-GOD!

my bro was telling me that i would have been in any one of the local uni already. served me right for dropping out of jc. AND NOW i have to struggle with my one and a half more year of poly education. why cant i just fight on a little bit more back den.. this is seriously shit. i am one year behind my peeps despite i am the one who scored well for o levels.


i really really really realllyyyyyy need to study and focus for the upcoming exams!! i wan to get into year 2 dhl. i wanna get into local uni. i must do it!!!! i knw i can!! i just need to put in my 101% of effort. CHIONG ALL THE WAY TILL EXAM FINISH!!! yes chiong! chiong! chiong!!!! holidays den enjoy! yes chiong ar irene!!!!

Friday, July 31, 2009

it is the 6th day that we have not met. gosh! i cant believe i have survived through.. in fact, this is the longest period ever we are separated.

quarreled.. yes.. yet again.. but this time round, i am just taking my time to mend back things. cos i am simply too busy. there are super lots of things to be completed. i am drowning myself with lots of work. study, study and study to stop my minds from wandering off. if things cant be mend back, so be it.

part of me still misses him a lot but i am starting to get used to the way things are now. i.e. me being alone. somehow, there is lesser frustration. i dun really have to care about so much things. i am able to concentrate better in my school work. i do feel so shitty at times that even a hug needs to be requested. i dun have to care so much about his shitty friends' opinions about me. yes, they are bad company! bad people! i dun even have many topic to talk with them and i feel super bored when they are around. it is just very un-natural! must be the age gap differences..

there isnt anything bad about being single. so much freedom!~ can do whatever i want.. woohoo!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.

Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.

Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.

Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts.

Persistence and determination are omnipotent.


Ai Piang Jia Eh Yia...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

i feel sad about the things happening around me...



things will get better.... hopefully...

Thursday, July 9, 2009

i am really tired... need a long break!


this wed i was the assistant and it was really dupeeeer busy!! did a lot of sai kang. sai kang warrior leh! i did a lot of dirty jobs la! sad :( but i felt really good. instructor said: "i can see that e assistant is trying her ber to support the head." i feel good despite it is only one sentence compliments. shiok!

the head s........u..........x.......! prior to e operation, we shld have more communication but hmmmm... nope. he is quite immature... venting anger on everyone...


next week i am the bar! YEAH! woooohoooo!


need to faster rush my projects NOW~

Thursday, July 2, 2009

I WANT TO BE SLIM AND FAIR!!!!~


my hair is soooooo screwed due to weekly excesssssssive spraying of hairspray and gel. i wan a new hair cut... new hair color.. yes.. very badly.. but i cant due to stupid module. i am saddddd...


ROOOOARRRRR!!


k.. lame.. i am doing my project.. yes! this late!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

i had a really bad day..


i cant believe i screw up big times during the test. i really know how to do it... but it just happens at that point of time, i totally screw it up. i am really really upset, demoralized and super frustrated with myself and the situation..


opportunity is only given once. i feel very angry....cos that module might down my gpa. i only know right now at this point of time, i cant give up. i cant give up. if i give up, i am going to lose the whole battle. i dun wan it to happen and i am going to put in my very best effort to achieve despite da failure.


if i lose my motivation and perseverance, it will take a long time for me to regain back.


mistakes are painful when they happen but it will also make us grow and become even stronger. DUN LET YR MISTAKES PUNISH YRSELF!!! i will just like before.....determined and motivated! IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

happy happy 19th birthday to me!


i am over da moon! really happy that there are ppl who can rmb my birthday. Woooo...~ darling bought a gucci wallet for me. Weee!! initially, he wanted to buy a thousand plus fitness package for me. luckily he didnt!! it is complete madness! spend one thousand on something that i dun wan.. 21 months of commitment to go for fitness lessons u knw!!


we make a reservation for the lv bag that i have always wanted cos it is out of stock.. pay half each.. wah.. so happy!!


YEAH!! i am officially 19.. lol~

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

努 力 就 会 有 收 获 剩 下 就 是 相 信 自 己 的 力 量.


whenever i am feeling very upset and demoralized, i will look my past entries..
i feel that back den i was silly but...i was soooooo self-motivated! 3-4 years ago, i was very motivated, full of self confidence and determined. as i grow up, i start losing my motivation and confidence..


in just few more days, i am going to be 19 years old. Wooo... how fast! when im sad,
i also like to cycle to lower seletar reservoir but some idiots stole my bike.. the me right now is so lack of motivation and determination..

i dun wan to continue daydream hoping some miracles will come to.. i want to turn dreams into reality!! yes.... chiong ar!!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i have finally passed my bike pract 5!!! YEAH!!!!!!


i am so so happy to the max!!! like finally.. i finally continue going for my bike pract after more than 6 months.. lol!! i think i was able to pass my pract 5 all thanks to the instructor..


YEAH!! i knw i took really long for my bike license... it is going to be more than a year.. aiya!! i must pass!! must pass!! i really envy female riders on da road.. they are my idols esp females with class 2!!! i hope i could get my class 2 license in da future!!


i knw i am stupid and clumsy but i knw my determination will bring me far!!! JIA YOU!!!!! :)

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I CAN DO ITTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


never give up..............hold on!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

NO BOUNDARIES

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way

What if your chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you give me one good reason to fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am — still holding on!

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe it’s harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all the aches and pains)

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams

Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

There are no boundaries! There are no boundaries!!




hook by this song... i can manage it. i can do it. i am POWER-THE-FUL!!!!!! SUPER!

Friday, May 22, 2009

"that's the reason why i hate you.."


u knw this comment is made by a tutor to me. like what the fuckkkk..? i didnt really talk to him and he didnt knw me well. i wanted to reply, "i hate you TOO..BIG FAT MORON." i didnt cos i didnt want to pull down my marks. i kept my cool..


it sounds as if i did something really bad to him. the fact is i didnt k! fucking big fat ass moron. arrrgghhh..


i really hate the module to the core. it is not as if i come to this course to learn how to be a "professional" waitress. NO! seriously, i hate f&b line and the fucking big fat ass tutor makes it worst. nevertheless, i am trying my best. i dun want to repeat the module and let it pull down my gpa.


WAH LAU!!! he acts like as if he is a gay. fucking gay, i hope he dies of diabetics soon. i shall just do my best! do my best and score well! do my best and score well! dun let it affect my grades.. just do it!!


yes, i can! get the module done and well this sem so i wont be seeing him again in my life..

Sunday, May 17, 2009

C.H.A.N.G.E.


i need a change! it's about change... irene 2009. LOL!!!


i get a lil depressed when i am back home.. i get a lil depressed when i go to school.. i get a lil depressed when i go to work..


i am really feeling depressed.. i am feeling weak with low motivation.. i am such a weak woman now.. WEAK! who...or mayb what should i rely on?


i dun really have a proper home.. home? like bu san bu si.. deep within, i just wanted someone to shower me love and lotsa concern.. but it seems it is just not possible to happen.. haiz..


i feel so empty.. i thought i found it but.. emptiness within me..


school is really tedious and the pile of work is killing me. endless stuffs to complete!


i feel suffocated with all the things.. w/o having a good rest. i am such a loser to be ranting ... ranting non-stop.. haiz.. immature 19yrs old gal..

Saturday, May 16, 2009

i am bored and tired..


very sian of everything.. i wanna change everything.. but i need some time..


i am crazy.. i am very absent-minded.. with things be better without.....?


weekends ruined.. test on monday.. i am hook with playing restaurant city.. playing it like 5 hrs already.. i am simply wasting my time away..


bloody random post.. lol..

Saturday, May 9, 2009

helloooo yoooo yoooo...







i am alright.. things are alright between me and my boy.. finally he is hearing some things into his head.. showing me more concern n attention.. :)







lil cute cute and cute cute (hahaha!)..


isnt she cute?? i wanna have babies!! SHE IS SUPER CUTE CAN!! lol.. one of my aims in life is to be a fashionable cool hot mum! i wanna be a young and cool mother! maybe around 22-24 yrs old??


talking abt school.. it is getting hectic.. one of the modules is super tedious! 8am to 4pm! we learn how to be professional waitress... eh? :( we have to bun up our hair with lotsa of hairspray and hair gel.... super auntie pls!


i have advanced to ESSENTIALJAP.. cool right?! den maybe after that.. i go JOPT4 test... oh ya... they are organising a japan trip.. i might be going! heehee.. hopefully gt subsidies den i will go :)

Thursday, April 30, 2009

i will be strong and not depend on him anymore..


i will only become WEAKER if i depend on him.. no.. i dun wan..


i can be strong by myself.. i gonna work harder this sem and chase back my GPA. my target is to get all As for all the modules.. cos no more comm skills.. can do it de as long i put in my 100% effort.. i have been losing my confidence in myself.. scare of trying.. NO.. i gonna be back the SUPERIRENE!


a true successful person is someone who uses his effort and abilities to achieve.. rather than someone who depends on luck..


YES I CAN DO IT!!! YES! I AM STRONG AND SUPER! i am NOT a weak woman who depends on bf..
he does not make me feel that "special" anymore..


we are back again but quarrel again..


insensitive and immune to my tears.. sometimes when i cry, i really needed someone to comfort me.. but he just feels i am kicking up a big fuss.. and he just turn off from me.. i dun feel that i am that important to him anymore..


i am just like talking to the walls.. he talks more with his friends than with me.. sometimes when i need a listening ear, the replies i got is hmm.. ah... orh... f.u.c.k. fuck! i feel BETTER typing everything out than telling him my problems. u knw.. seriously, i am not feeling very comfortable with the new change in my school.. i told him and he just himm.. ar... oh.. orh..


it is like so.... de~ FUCK.


the computer is like my best companion.. such LOSER life i have.. i shld just drown myself in books and cyber world.. why do i love him so much.. fuck.. i shouldnt okay.. hate myself! i shld just love myself..


and whenever we quarrel, i am not able to concentrate in my work.. i just feel like my whole world come crushing down.. cos u see.. i am depending on him TOO MUCH. too much that i have lost myself..


i dun understand why do i have to spend time and effort traveling down to his workplace everyday.. i am such a STOOOPID WOMAN.. wah lau.. go find him for wat right.. and somemore it is so fuckinggggg far......!! i am like cheapening myself.. DAMN IT.. i shld just go home and have good rest RIGHT.. i shld just love and treasure myself.. COS HE DOES NOT TREASURE ME AT ALL..


i feel horrible.. he does not bother.. he does not care.. so.. why shld i care so much about him right.. seriously.. if i continue to carry on the mindset of depending on him too much, i am going to do BADLY for this sem again.


heck care my tears.. fuck.. walls.. walls.. i seriously have no place.. no position.. WHY SHLD I CARE SO MUCH ABT HIM.. WHY SHLD I CARE SO MUCH ABT HIM.. HE TREATS HIS FRIENDS EVEN BETTER THAB ME.. LOSER ME.. FUCK.. IRENE.. U WERENT LIKE THIS!! i was strong and INDEPENDENT.. i feel like fucking weak.. weak woman..


I AM NOT A WEAK WOMAN.. YES.. I SHLD NOT CARE SO MUCH ABT HIM.. why shld i bother so much abt his feelings when he dun bother about my feelings..


he shld just find a new gf.. i shld just forget all abt him and lead my SELFISH LIFE..

Saturday, April 25, 2009

he told me... he wants to have his selfish life back.. leave him alone...


after i kick up an unreasonable big fuss ytd..


i told him.. i feel restricted.. i feel sick of the relationship.. i do not have any freedom.. i cant do anything i want.. i cant even play the computer.. WTH.. i feel like i am talking to the wall.. most of all, i feel that lack of attention and concern from him..


i am very possessive.. very very possessive.. him too.. we end up quarreling many times.. i started the quarrel most of the time.. it might be the fact that we meet EVERYDAY.


i feel lost and stunned now cos i think he mean it when he told me to leave him alone.. i feel lost cos i am very used..too used..to seeing him everyday. it became part of my daily routine..


i dunno what is gonna happen.. being in a relationship affects my studies.. maybe i am going to lose him forever.. i dunno.. well.. maybe..?

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I AM BACK! I AM BACK! :)





I MISS SINGAPORE! ESP THE FOOD.





the trip to hong kong was ok ok. food sux! my treat for darling! i am xiao fu po k.. lol.. bought back things for my family. the feeling is great to be able to splurge on things for yr loved ones :)





didnt really buy back a lot of things for myself. but i got my MCDULL!! heeee!! mcdull is my fav piggy character..





darling started work today. I LOVE HIM WEARING FORMAL!! so shuai!! i am fantasizing myself and him wearing formal and go to work together. driving a black mercedes sport car... i wanna buy a watch for him....!!! 7 mths anniversay comming :)





maybe genting next for my holiday? or perth? the air ticket to perth is dirt cheap!!! i will buy now if bf can get off man.. super cheap man! clear off all the destinations around sg and den go far.. my aim is to go japan by the age of 22 yrs old!! master jap language first..


I LOVE TRAVELLING!!! :)

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Yo! i am flying off to hong kong tmr! my last exam paper tmr also! haha!


i will be back on the 1st of march. 7D6N!! going with my dearest bf... :)


Woohoooo!!! HONG KONG!! the holiday i have been waiting for 9 months! anw, we push forward the date cos bf starting his new job soon.


i wanna go disneyland!!! i wanna eat dim sum!!!


the next trip i wanna go is japan or korea! i wanna see snow! hmmmmm... or maybe australia?? the air ticket to australia is dirt cheap if u travel to darwin..


i love traveling :-)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

went bai nian these two days... everyone just seems..........to age so much. hope everyone will have good health!! 长命百岁! 身体健康 o!


why lady luck never ever knock on my door...


feel abit sad... dunno why things have been so sway... wah... damn sway u knw..


at chinese new year eve, the 6 of us went to 四马路 to 拜神. him, me, his big bro and gf, his younger bro and gf.. den.. den.. they got into a fight wor!


cos someone just literally punch him big bro.. den younger bro and him step in to help.. someone pull him back.. bf slip and fall.. DEN HOR... $300 FALL OUT FROM HIS WALLET!!!!


LIKE WHAT THE FUCK CAN??? hahaha.. he become god of fortune that night.. drop money let ppl take la!


haiz.. why bring so much money out in such crowded places right..


police come... blah blah blah.. everyone settle outside.. luckily, everyone is fine..


not only this sway thing.. in the morning, he got fine $100 for illegal parking..


every month surely got something bad happen.. is it our 八字不合?


REALLY LOR.. WHY SO SWAY AH?? very sian... 拜神 also no use.. pls stop happening all these sway things can... i cannot take it.. :(

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


me and my dearest ah "gong".. :)


something sway happen again... my darling's bike kena aim..again!! somebody steal his brake thingy. haiz.. damage is $500 plus..


his heart pain.. my heart also pain.. :(

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Yeahhhh....!!!

i am so so so happy cos i got "A" for my french which is totally unexpected!! Yes! Yes! Yes!

but i am kinda feeling very stressed and worried now..

next week.. i have comm skills role play on tue.. geo travel test on wed.. OB presentation, french culture quiz and jap listening test on thurs..

i have to hand in comm skill article and geo travel article on 23 jan..

BCS web project and microecon project due on 26-28 jan..

etc.. etc... etc...



final exams is 20 feb to march 6.. after that, i will be havin my holidays lo! but i am damn sad! cos i have lost my job schedule so which means... i need to find a new job!! ANY JOB LOBANG PLS??

gosh.. i cant imagine myself slacking throughout my holidays without working.. but i cant wait for my hong kong trip~~!!! march 16 to march 19. woohooooo!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

xiao didi ah beng ask come to me and ask if he could make friends with me. not one but two on da same day when i was playing arcade with a friend! wahahaha!! i am xiao didi killer! lol..

i was looking at my past photos.. gosh.. my facial quality in the past was so much better than now. ok random..

i wanna GO TAIWAN!!!! damn.. i am so regretted now that why didnt i purchase two hundreds plus air tickets. AIYA~~~~~ ok random..

i think elvis presley is supeeeer handsome in his young days... he gt super good vocals and he is really charming. ok random...

i am missing him so much... ok random...

i AM SO BORED!!!! ok random..

Monday, January 5, 2009

i grow a white hair!!


haha.. my first white hair!!! :(


i am feeling better now for the loss of his bike. have been reading newspaper these few days.. so many negative news! gosh! i feel so blessed to be kicking and alive.. healthy.. sg citizen.. etc..


when u feel down, read newspaper! lol.. anw.. celebrated bf dad birthday ytd and i kinda feel happy that his mum is accepting me well.. heehee! :) u knw... she actually scolded me before saying I DUN HAVE MANNERS. lol!!!


my life just revolve around bf..bf..bf..bf..bf.. right now.. in my eyes, i can only see him! i feel happy when he is.. oh dear!


alright.. got to finish my assignment liao.. :)

Friday, January 2, 2009

Not a very happy year.. 2009.. :(


it just happen to be SO SWAY that his smaller bike was stolen on the last day of 2008. we were tgt goin JB for massage. haiz.. what the fuck?


u knw... i SERIOUSLY HATE MALAYSIA!!!! FUCKING CORRUPTED PLACE. POLICE ARE THIEF!! police stole $100 from my bf's wallet last month at jb. screw it.. and screw the malaysian who caused me to pay $70 for the lost stock at work.


i am damn upset for his loss and i am still brooding over it. 10k modification done on the bike :((((( SCREW THE FUCKING ASS WHO STEAL HIS BIKE. very sad lor! i feel that i am the one....who caused his bike to be stolen. low self esteem! haiz..


sometimes i feel that i am a jinx in his life.. just so sway that during our relationship.. his house's dryer, washing machine, rice cooker and refrigerator were spoilt! eh... i didnt touch! bigger bike tyre punctured, side mirror destroyed and scratches inflicted by someone!!! he keep falling sick and even lost some weight.. whereas... i am the one gaining weight!!! 4D first and 3rd price never win cos i am the one who ask him to stop buying 4D. handphone spoilt cos i am drop it many times.


i am damn demoralised. am i the one bringing all these bad luck? i cant stop myself from thinking. really demoralised.. just cant stop blaming myself.


aging year by year but i cant handle rejections well.. sometimes seeing the sadness and stress on his face.. despite all these, he is still trying to make me happy. whereas, i dunno what i can do..


seeing more and more pimples on his face.. losing hair day by day.. more and more white hair.. poor boy must be under a lot of stress! :(


and i am damn upset with my comm skills cos i got a C. cu point is 5 leh! very sad... :(


dammit.. i am so negative right? hahaha.. needa write out my thoughts and den re-organize it.


ok..irene.. BE POSITIVE ALRIGHT? money can be earned back! who knows we will be driving ferrari in the future? health is more impt. it is great that despite all these, we are still alive and kicking! woohoo! you got to be more positive and organize yr stuffs well k! dun neglect yr studies! u still wanna travel around the world!


DESTROY ALL THE OBSTACLES!!! DESTROY!!! i will be strong! fly over despair!~~~