Not a very happy year.. 2009.. :(


it just happen to be SO SWAY that his smaller bike was stolen on the last day of 2008. we were tgt goin JB for massage. haiz.. what the fuck?


u knw... i SERIOUSLY HATE MALAYSIA!!!! FUCKING CORRUPTED PLACE. POLICE ARE THIEF!! police stole $100 from my bf's wallet last month at jb. screw it.. and screw the malaysian who caused me to pay $70 for the lost stock at work.


i am damn upset for his loss and i am still brooding over it. 10k modification done on the bike :((((( SCREW THE FUCKING ASS WHO STEAL HIS BIKE. very sad lor! i feel that i am the one....who caused his bike to be stolen. low self esteem! haiz..


sometimes i feel that i am a jinx in his life.. just so sway that during our relationship.. his house's dryer, washing machine, rice cooker and refrigerator were spoilt! eh... i didnt touch! bigger bike tyre punctured, side mirror destroyed and scratches inflicted by someone!!! he keep falling sick and even lost some weight.. whereas... i am the one gaining weight!!! 4D first and 3rd price never win cos i am the one who ask him to stop buying 4D. handphone spoilt cos i am drop it many times.


i am damn demoralised. am i the one bringing all these bad luck? i cant stop myself from thinking. really demoralised.. just cant stop blaming myself.


aging year by year but i cant handle rejections well.. sometimes seeing the sadness and stress on his face.. despite all these, he is still trying to make me happy. whereas, i dunno what i can do..


seeing more and more pimples on his face.. losing hair day by day.. more and more white hair.. poor boy must be under a lot of stress! :(


and i am damn upset with my comm skills cos i got a C. cu point is 5 leh! very sad... :(


dammit.. i am so negative right? hahaha.. needa write out my thoughts and den re-organize it.


ok..irene.. BE POSITIVE ALRIGHT? money can be earned back! who knows we will be driving ferrari in the future? health is more impt. it is great that despite all these, we are still alive and kicking! woohoo! you got to be more positive and organize yr stuffs well k! dun neglect yr studies! u still wanna travel around the world!


DESTROY ALL THE OBSTACLES!!! DESTROY!!! i will be strong! fly over despair!~~~