I AM SO TIRED. just reach home from colleague's bday celebration.


it is so boring. Sigh.. give face ma!


have been working non-stop for 8 days and i am finally off tmr. staring into space a lot lately. very tired.. HAIZ. stationing at MUS is a NIGHTMARE. HAIZ.. SO TRAMUATIZED. VERY HORRIBLE.


on top of that, i eat eggs at there for TWO DAYS. HAIZ. it is very difficult to differentiate potential and un-potential customers. the selling technique is VERY VERY different from other places including slq! it is 1000000000 times worst than at slq. HAIZ. got to be more firm and daring to jio those ah cha. BE FIERCE yet not that offending. cannot just stand there and wait for durians to drop.. NO DURIANS AT ALL LOR. if not, i gonna eat eggs for da whole week.


MUS is a good place to shop but MUST BE very careful. being there three times, i kena touch twice. so upset. HAIZ. i dun mind ppl to see see but DUN touch touch PLS.


feeling very bothered these few days. HAIZ. his appearance is bringing a lot of distress to me. he REALLY bought an iPhone for me and i fall into the temptation of accepting it. knw hw much that cost? close to 1k! his motive is very unclear and i can feel that he is not a person to be trifle with. he is a very smart guy.. i am obviously NOT his match at all. i am just a 17 yrs old teen and i wont be able to guess or knw what he is thinking.


when u step into this world, there will be many different kinds of temptation and distraction. obviously knowing that it is wrong, i fall into the temptation to accept it. SLAP ME PLS for being so greedy! there is no free meals in this world. IRENE, WAKE UP.


right now, i must give up the desire of owning the phone and return back to him even though hw much i love the phone! BE FIRM AND SAY NO.


he is not a simple person. unclear motives he has.. he is lying at times and has already planned out since the first day he saw me. seriously.. if he really likes me, will he be lying and be cautious? NO RIGHT..BUT HE IS.


what is scary is within a short while, he could come up with a foolproof plan. what i predict is..he is an OLD GINGER. must have fooled many gals already.. money to him is not a problem and he has all the time to play with. he has patience! worst of all, i look lyk such an EASY TARGET. i look so innocent and naive. oh well.. yes i really am. :(


he dig out my interests and wants on day one and is using it now against me. iPhone is my weak point and he is using as one of his best cards.


i really fear for my own safety and i am so DUMB to accept it. this is very disturbing.. my main issue now should be about my school registration and NOT this. irene, stop admiring brands and owning stupid things. they are useless tangible stuffs. stop thinking abt wanting this wanting that doing this doing that. focus on the main issue and ie STUDY.


what i am afraid now is after returning back the phone and mess up his plans, he would loss his patience and bring harm to me. maybe this is a test i need to go thru in my life to gain wisdom. LOL!!!!!


i need to go buy and read up some self-help/enlighten books. use it as a remainder for me not to fall into anymore distractions and temptations. seek wisdom and get rid of the devilish thoughts i am having now... bless me!